Roll Call 113

How are you? I’ve been wondering about you.

Good morning everyone. Drinking coffee and watching Alaskan wildlife troopers.
I have to go grocery shopping today . I also need some meds. I’m out of Zoloft. I guess I’ll pick up all of my meds. Not that I want to it’s so expensive.
What’s everyone up to today?

You might do better with a black phone....

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Morning

Barely slept

Im gonna have to get a new med for sleep. Idk. Ive been having severe insomnia. For the longest time.

10:31am I've been awake for about an hour. There was no smoke break this morning. I sure hope there will be at 1.

Hope everyone is at least ok.

Hi, good to see you about. Hope all is well.

Have you tried Benadryl? I know it is helpful for some. Otherwise can you ask you doc for a sleep med?

I gained 10 pounds. Really sucks. Been eating late, in the middle of the night, lots of carbs and stuff. Plus been feeling like i have a bottomless stomach.

Man this really sucks.

Afternoon,

Had a pretty good day. Just watching some TV.

Damn. That sucks. I hope you get one.

Ill try benadryl. Thats prob what they will tell me to take anyway. I was gonna ask for a new med. ive taken melatonin and it doesnt work. Started taking this damn flu medicine. Gonna stop that.

I’m sorry, it can be hard to keep up healthy eating sometimes.

I’ve gained all the weight I lost before Christmas. Although a couple of pounds was since I came back.

Not ideal but not going to give up.

morning. i'm a dirty liar and told the bf i was sick with the flu (he had it earlier this week so it's believable). i just want one weekend to myself. i'm relishing it. just laying around with the dog all day. i don't even feel that terrible for lying. why do i always get into relationships with the clingiest people alive?

I gained all the weight i lost last year! Took me like almost 12 months to lose maybe 10 - 15 pounds. Gained it all back in the last 2 months of the year. I feel so sluggish and nasty.

There’s nothing wrong with wanting some time alone. It sucks your not able to just call a rain check though... lying is never ideal

Shrug. I’ve done it myself though so no judging here.

the messed up thing is i'm almost certain (almost) that i could have just told him i didn't feel like going out and he would have eventually accepted it. but then there's the fear that there would be so much wheedling that i wouldn't be able to say no. it's like he can't bear to be alone. when we went to texas on christmas break i read his tarot for fun and in his mental reading he drew a reversed queen of cups, which uh:

The reversed Queen of Cups can indicate an over-reliance on other people’s emotional responses, which may result in a co-dependency type relationship. You may want to examine your current relationships. Is there co-dependency? Are you giving too much of yourself and not getting anything in return? This Queen nurtures for the sake of inducing dependency, and places undue importance on being in a relationship, no matter what its quality. There could also be a tendency towards having too many expectations from your partner.

(and i do worry about the implications in that reading against me too because i can be pretty cold sometimes.)

so do you ever do some digging on something and your jaw hits the fujking floor because that's you and that's your life

sorry for all the posts gotta get rid of the bad number

Sigh. I guess I have to go. I really just want to stay home and watch football.

I never knew ident code existed. Learn something everyday.

Co-dependance and tarot reading are far out of my realm of expertise but have some hugs...

I gained back all the weight I lost. I'm really discouraged but I just need to get back into exercising.

Yes, there was one! So relieved. I missed lunch though because I fell asleep and then had to hurry outside to vape.

If the Benadryl doesn't help, ask for Vistaril (50 mg). It makes me drowsier than Benadryl.

Ive taken vistaril before. Doesn’t help.