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Old Jan 13, 2018, 02:44 PM
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I think i realized im not overall happy with my life and im just doing stuff to forget about how unhappy i am.

Like im having sex and spending lots of money and on my phone all the time (those are just a few) cuz those things i posted aren’t being met in my life.

Its not a mental illness thing. Its not a bipolar thing. Because i have control over what im doing. Its more like im just trying to mask the feelings of loneliness and emptiness. Which is why i drank last year so much. Like im constantly onto the next thing to fill the void.

Im pretty sure thats why im depressed all the time right now. Cuz its all hitting me at once.
In my own way I do the same thing. I drink so I can feel interest in my old passions again, so that i feel motivated to write. Without alcohol my life would be meaningless and hollow, because it's through writing that I feel most like my old self before anhedonia.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 02:49 PM
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Uninvited company. Yay Roll Call 113.
Best way to get rid of uninvited company is to offer them hamburger casserole.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 02:50 PM
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I don’t think I’ve posted today so just checking in! I always read PC first thing in the morning to catch up but don’t always post...

About the watch a documentary called Big Cats with my mum. Should be fairly evident what it’s about...
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 03:01 PM
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Good evening/afternoon everyone. How are things going today?

I'm doing okay. I did see a large spider a little bit ago that disappeared....we don't think it is real. We live in downtown and never get bugs in our apartment.

Otherwise just been watching YouTube videos covering the last of CES 2018. Now caught up on Roll Call, and looking forward to Monday when I get my case, PSU, and water cooler. I need a project to keep me busy, lol.

What's everyone up to today?
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 03:20 PM
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Best way to get rid of uninvited company is to offer them hamburger casserole.


Shed probably like it.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 03:42 PM
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Today kinda sucks just cuz nothing to do
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 04:07 PM
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Me neither Newtus. I’m bored out of my mind. Everyone is doing their own thing. I’m watching mom reruns and refreshing pc.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 04:18 PM
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I keep looking up hotels to visit. But also look up apartments and homes for the bf and i if it comes to that. I have high hopes for us. I really think we will make it.

But...theres just not enough money. We dont have enough between me not working and him making minimum wage.

Not even sure how wed live together...really disappointing.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 04:19 PM
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I dont even know where to start looking
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 05:03 PM
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Really bored. Havent heard from my friends in a few days. One of them keeps saying she’ll call me but shes said that everyday for the past 3 days. Cant wait to see my pss monday.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 05:49 PM
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Hello?

Where is everyone?
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 06:02 PM
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Hello?

Where is everyone?
I'm here friend! Played on twitter for a little bit. Made a google play play list so i could focus easier while I edit my book. I just downed my 6th pint and paid the bill. Ill be here for another half hour to relax and finish editing another chapter.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 06:09 PM
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I'm around! Just watching Youtube videos. Have a ravenous appetite right now that I can't seem to curb....
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 06:15 PM
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I went for breakfast and then went shopping and now I’m just watching tv. Exciting.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 06:19 PM
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I’m here for a few. I’m waiting for my dinner. I got a ham & cheese grinder again. Just not feeling the pizza.
I’ve done nothing today. I took a shower and changed my pajamas.
Getting ready to watch the X-Files. I’m excited to watch this week. Though I wish we had more Stranger Things to watch but we have to wait until 2019 for those.
I don’t feel great. Have a cough and sore throat and chest from coughing so much. Oh well could be worse I could have the flu which I heard is pretty bad this year.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 06:30 PM
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12 years old was when negative symptoms of schiz started. Then at 16, positive symptoms started. I guess my mom telling the liquor store to stop serving me when I was 18 worked because I haven't drank that heavy since then.

I was very depressed with agitated mixed state psychosis. Drinking was something to take my mind off of my mental state.

Since I couldn't booze myself, I went online and ordered every drug under the sun.

Impulsive. Now the Invega keeps me calm. A wet blanket over my mind.

I'm surprised that I don't have extreme paranoia anymore. I got used to being paranoid.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 06:45 PM
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Ive been taking this flu medicine to sleep. And i think its getting out of hand. Problem is im not sleeping at all really at night. I havent slept much in the past 2 months. Maybe a few hours a night. Only getting a full nights rest maybe once every 2 weeks.

I have no clue what to do. Being taken off the ambien really hurt my sleep ever since.

Im just so lost
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 06:48 PM
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I’m so moody now. I can’t help it everything is so annoying.
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 07:08 PM
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Uninvited company. Yay Roll Call 113.
Ugh that is so rude
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 07:09 PM
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Good evening/afternoon everyone. How are things going today?

I'm doing okay. I did see a large spider a little bit ago that disappeared....we don't think it is real. We live in downtown and never get bugs in our apartment.

Otherwise just been watching YouTube videos covering the last of CES 2018. Now caught up on Roll Call, and looking forward to Monday when I get my case, PSU, and water cooler. I need a project to keep me busy, lol.

What's everyone up to today?
There was a wolf spider in my moms bathroom today
I would post a pic but i can't put it in a trigger on tapatalk
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 07:10 PM
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I dont even know where to start looking
There are Facebook housing/rental groups on fb
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 07:14 PM
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I’m here for a few. I’m waiting for my dinner. I got a ham & cheese grinder again. Just not feeling the pizza.
I’ve done nothing today. I took a shower and changed my pajamas.
Getting ready to watch the X-Files. I’m excited to watch this week. Though I wish we had more Stranger Things to watch but we have to wait until 2019 for those.
I don’t feel great. Have a cough and sore throat and chest from coughing so much. Oh well could be worse I could have the flu which I heard is pretty bad this year.
HehehehehehehhhhRoll Call 113
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 07:14 PM
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12 years old was when negative symptoms of schiz started. Then at 16, positive symptoms started. I guess my mom telling the liquor store to stop serving me when I was 18 worked because I haven't drank that heavy since then.

I was very depressed with agitated mixed state psychosis. Drinking was something to take my mind off of my mental state.

Since I couldn't booze myself, I went online and ordered every drug under the sun.

Impulsive. Now the Invega keeps me calm. A wet blanket over my mind.

I'm surprised that I don't have extreme paranoia anymore. I got used to being paranoid.
I was 16 too when I had my first hallucination
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Mom bought a roku and I just set it up for her
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Old Jan 13, 2018, 07:28 PM
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