Roll Call 113

I definitely need some coffee, like a ton. I had a few cups this morning but nowhere near enough. I don't have a thermos to bring it in, maybe I'll get myself one soon.

How have things been going for you?

That sounds good. They have DayQuil and NyQuil here. I don't think I've ever tried them though. They are only letting me have cough medicine for 7 days. I think I'm on day 4. The coughing gets really bad still. They have been giving me a Claritin in the morning.

Yes, you need a thermos!!! I am kind of down. I hate being in this place but I don't want to be a burden on my friend.

Things got pretty bad with Miss Universe last week or so, and my paranoia has been worse, thinking they're going to transfer me to a state hospital or something. I'm worried because all my worst fears have been coming true and I still have the worst of the worst just waiting to happen. I hate it here but that doesn't mean I should burden my friend.

Could they give you anything for the paranoia?

Maybe but if it didn't work it would be scary for me. I'm on probably the top recommended dose of Risperdal and I'm wondering if I should have a med change. Not sure if I should tell them or not.

Tell them, it's important. They may be able to change it to something else that work better, it's worth a shot if it can help you feel better

I remember this quote from therapy which always helped with my anxiety and fears:

“My life has been full of terrible misfortunes most of which never happened.”

I’m sure things won’t get too bad. There is always hope they will get better.

Thank you. As long as nothing bad happens to my friend, things should be ok.

Got this at the school library

We got about a foot of snow last night...
I shoveled and within thirty minutes the snow piled up so much that I had to go out and shovel again, but by this time the snow had gotten so high that it was near-impossible for one person to do

The snow stopped falling, but its so much snow!!

Am I still welcome here if I don't have schizoaffective anymore ? I've been off Invega 17 days and haven't had any bad symptoms so I'm wondering if I ever really had it to begin with, or maybe I had it but it went away

Of course you are welcome!

It doesn’t matter if you are having symptoms now but whether you’ve dealt with them in the past. We have all had these experiences and that’s why we are all here...

So I was watching a show where a dad took his daughter to the cinema that’s a tradition I have with my dad and makes me feel like it’s one I’d want with my own children. A few steps to go before that happens though!!!

As Loial said----of course

I really hope you don't have it anymore

One possibility is bipolar, if you get your moods leveled out you don't get the psychosis part anymore.

Thanks guys, I am on antidepressant, mood stabilizer , and anxiety meds and seem to be doing really well.

About an hour till class starts

I cannot wait to go home! I'm proud of myself for getting here today though. I wanted to go back to sleep but I forced myself to get up, get ready and leave.

I will certainly sleep good tonight. As soon as I get home tonight I'm making some ramen for dinner and chilling with my cats them going to sleep!

Im stressing out so much.

My dad is just complaining and mumbling under his breath. And belittling me.

I want to get out of here! I wish i had money to move TODAY. Im not gonna last here.

It’s been just over a month since I got my Google Pixel 2. Got to say I’m loving it. Already feels a part of me. The thing I love the most though is the inbuilt song recognition. Seems to pick up songs even quietly across the room.

Well, I'm gonna get off and head to class soon. Hope you all have a good night

I feel like I complain so much. The bf said ive been really negative lately.

I just am so stressed out and i dont handle stress well...

Damn...

I just ate a whole medium pizza by myself in 1 sitting...

Thats never happened before.

I found my music files with a search, but I don't know what folder they're in.

The new roommate might be ok. Have to see how things go.

I'm very out of it today.

You're always welcome here.

I remember when I was growing up wanting to be out of the house so badly that I studied super hard for college so I could insure a time away from home. Put your stuff in order in terms of what you need to do to get out and do it with the constant reminder of why you need to get out. You can journal it if you need to remember why.

Ok. Im trying to make some more money. Also trying to get school set up for that medical certification.

Im not sure what else i need to do tho? Advice? Besides get more money and a degree to ensure a job when out there on my own.

If i could just make an extra 600 a month, i could move with the bf in a really decent place somewhere safe. We could probably get our dream apartment cuz with extra money from me, that would bring our total income to about 3,000 a month. That would be exactly 3 times the income amount of an apartment that is 900 or 1000. And thats perfect for around this area.