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Possible trigger:

that moment when you realise that the voices in your head arn't just talking about the end of your life and how you don't deserve to be alive in the first place, but they are talking about Homicide and wanting to hurt others.

and if you're like me, you believe them and it sends you in to a pannic

I hate days like today

[Sometimes psychotic]

Idk I told my T about something like this because I was really worried I might hurt someone....she was like no I’ve dealt with people who are actually homicidal and it’s not at all the same. The way I deal with this for myself is to not ever have access to obvious weapons. No guns no knives outside of cooking. I also tell myrslef that while personal alarms and pepper spray are ok I’ll let the police handle everything else or the military. That way I never feel like I need to save the world by killing one person or anything like that (which is what was happening)

Voices say **** just to get a reaction. I wouldn't worry about it. It's like how hypnosis can't make you do anything you don't want to do. Voices can say whatever they like but, unless you choose to do what they say, they have no power.

*Willow*

[Teddy Bear]

Sorry your voices tell you to do bad things

[Rincad]

Same here. My voices tell me to do the same thing. I'm pretty sure they'll continue until I eventually do what they say. This landed me inpatient. I suggest to cope is by reading and being total submerged in a healthy coping skill. I read or draw or game or write. It'll make them angry ngry lngry fngry, but this is your life not there's. Try deep breathing to relax yourself. Talk to your psychiatrist for maybe a dose rise or go to a therapist and talk it out.

[OldTaylor]

I don't need good people afraid of me. I'm not anti-police or pro-police. Police have work to do that doesn't involve me as long as I'm not running around 51/50. I don't need that scenario. I have my voices and times that I'm completely convinced by some psychotic reasoning that agents of malevolence are actively gumming up my works, but I fight it. There aretimes when I know I lost a battle in that same arena, still I commit it to memory and continue the good fight of faith. Don't give up!

[Loose Screw x 2]

OldTaylor is right. You musn't give up! I have a really, really bad guy in my mind with me because I have DID and went through a lot of childhood trauma but, those feelings and thoughts don't have to rule over me. That's why I keep that personality on lock down so, that he can't hurt anyone and he is extremely delusional. More so than the rest of us in here. You have to learn to control it and that is no easy task. It takes practice and calming your mind. Also if you aren't seeing a doctor or therapist about this then, I suggest that you do as soon as possible. Good luck and Merry Christmas.

[LexicBatman]

I'm not really sure how this works but hopefully I'm doing this right.
I'm 17 years old and I suffer from homicidal thoughts. I don't hear voices of anything like that. Since about September I've been waking up with migraines, feeling extremely tired, and that's basically when the thoughts started. This is hard to explain but it doesn't feel like it's me thinking those things. Every time I get them i want to die. I don't like the fact that i don't feel like I have control over what goes on in my head. It hurts me every time I have homicidal thoughts. I've thought many times about just killing myself to get away from the thoughts. Also I 100% of the time can control my homicidal urges. My triggers are a lot of things. My family being the majority of those triggers. I right now just want to learn is to deal with these thoughts, and if I don't i might end up in the hospital again or worse. I can't live like this anymore

[Rincad]

Originally Posted by LexicBatman

I'm not really sure how this works but hopefully I'm doing this right.
I'm 17 years old and I suffer from homicidal thoughts. I don't hear voices of anything like that. Since about September I've been waking up with migraines, feeling extremely tired, and that's basically when the thoughts started. This is hard to explain but it doesn't feel like it's me thinking those things. Every time I get them i want to die. I don't like the fact that i don't feel like I have control over what goes on in my head. It hurts me every time I have homicidal thoughts. I've thought many times about just killing myself to get away from the thoughts. Also I 100% of the time can control my homicidal urges. My triggers are a lot of things. My family being the majority of those triggers. I right now just want to learn is to deal with these thoughts, and if I don't i might end up in the hospital again or worse. I can't live like this anymore

Lexic, I do suggest you to a psychiatrist or at least your GP. If your can get a therapist do so. Homicidal thoughts alone with suicidal ones are signs that help is needed. You may be suffering though a mental illness or a neurological disorder. You have to get treatment right away. I think that it is good you can control your urges. But don’t wear yourself out. You may go to the hospital, especially if you have a plan. Mostly if you have a plan. Maybe, if you cna, go outpatient. I hope I helped.

Originally Posted by LexicBatman

I'm not really sure how this works but hopefully I'm doing this right.
I'm 17 years old and I suffer from homicidal thoughts. I don't hear voices of anything like that. Since about September I've been waking up with migraines, feeling extremely tired, and that's basically when the thoughts started. This is hard to explain but it doesn't feel like it's me thinking those things. Every time I get them i want to die. I don't like the fact that i don't feel like I have control over what goes on in my head. It hurts me every time I have homicidal thoughts. I've thought many times about just killing myself to get away from the thoughts. Also I 100% of the time can control my homicidal urges. My triggers are a lot of things. My family being the majority of those triggers. I right now just want to learn is to deal with these thoughts, and if I don't i might end up in the hospital again or worse. I can't live like this anymore

Maybe these could be intrusive thoughts?? Either way, I'm sorry that you have to deal with them

Do you have a therapist that you can talk to about these experiences? I have intrusive thoughts myself, though not homicidal, and reminding myself that it's just a thought and doesn't mean anything in itself is helpful for me so I don't get caught into a thought spiral about it.

*Willow*