Roll Call 125

yes it's tough cause it affects so many things and I hate lying

you can do it!!! if I can... anyone can

I am so glad I've never been in a high profile job and busted for embezzling a million dollars. Just read a news story. So this guy was a former mayor and first embezzles around $500,000 from the city, and then does the same to a relative to get the money to pay back the city.

Can you imagine the panic you'd have if this was you? Yikes.

I need confidence. I get strong anxiety performing in front of others; even practice and rehearsal. I belt out my best vocals alone. I need to bring those to the stage, to the studio. Anyone have any advice to work through this? Some points I want to quit, but I came too far to give up this fight. I am sticking this out. I don't know if or when I could get a second chance at this.

I also need to get earplugs. Want my ears to remain safe. But if they get in the way of me hearing my own vocals I will get a set of studio monitors to counteract that.

Some people say they have a quiet singing voice. No. It just matters on how confident you are. Then you sing loud.

Yeah. If I am alone I project very well. I open up. When I am around people I tense up and get more quiet.

Damn it. Now I'm crying my eyes out. Texting is my mode of communication when I struggle with words in word by word conversation. I have had trouble with getting replies from my wife and partner. I don't want to burden them anymore. They already have enough stress on their own plates without me adding to it....

I find anxiety comes from a lack of control. The best thing you can do is realize you are in control of the situation.

You are not a burden....they or anyone who cares is happy to help.

Youre not a burden, FR.

My dad cooked steak, macaroni & cheese, and vegetables for dinner. Along with potato salad from the grocery store and cornbread.

Yummy yummy in my tummy!

Very true....I just need to find it within me to belt this out. To get better at this.


Thanks guys.

That sounds excellent!

It was really really good!!! Im still eating!

Damn, son. Delish.

I’m having Chinese style ribs and rice.

Oh I like those Chinese style ribs haven’t had them in a long time....actually think those were Korean....oops

sooo tempted to not work my last 2 days here at HL lol

I have to tho. I have to leave the door open in case something doesn't work out and I ask to be rehired

My bfs last day is tomorrow.....he is hating the waiting too.

Good to use as a reference in the future too.....

So I bought myself some makeup. Ima try to purdify myself for a change.

I suck at makeup...

My almost 17 year old sister is really good at it. I may ask her for pointers. My mom is trying to teach me how to do the cat eye. I'm an artist I should be able to do it lol.

Didn’t have enough hoisin to make the sauce from scratch so we took some bourbon BBQ sauce and added five spice and hoisin and stuff to make it and it was delicious.

Yeah always good to use as a reference in case you go for another job.

Doesn’t mean you can’t half *** it a little bit... lol. I know I did before on last days at old jobs.

I’ve been struggling the last couple days. I’ve felt down, I’ve felt the urge the self harm, I’ve been drinking more, and I’ve been eating more while at the same time thinking of starving myself. I’ve been on my period too which I think might be the cause. I’m just so sick of this like why can’t I be normal. Meds are supposed to make me normal. I even have been struggling to take them. I took ten minutes tonight to convince myself to take them.

I usually just set a timer...it rings, pills get taken less to think about that way....