Roll Call 126!

I enjoy them lol.

I took like an hour and a half nap.

Eating a pb&j now

I keep taking naps

hi all, new here.

So it’s a long weekend here this weekend. And I get paid for the day off, right. However, because of IT issues this week at work they are offering overtime at 2X rate. In addition to the stat holiday pay.

So long story short I am so working on Monday.

Cog is going to be rich!

I just want tomorrow to come and never leave

So tired need a stim

I need to exercise but my heart beating fast and tiredness and blablabla all these excuses..

I need to let out all my racing thought energy sometimes

Then I can solve problems.

I'm buying a bike next week. I'm going to cycle around at midnight for like 2 hours because I go to bed at 2am.

Junkdna matters and whoever says different are liars.

Hero who appears in you to clear your view when you're too crazy

You matter! To us, your mom, your t and your new friends.

Me and my boss got into a heated exchange about me working tomorrow (Saturday). He point was valid but so was mine. Didn't end well. Both of us looked like assholes. So I guess im working tomorrow.

That feeling I sense right there bloody sucks. Hang in there.

Im gonna try to exercise tomorrow morning

Good morning. Made it to 4:30! Went to bed at 10. Slept well.
Nothing going on today. Husband is working overtime on 2nd shift. We’re going to Pizza Hut for pizza tonight. The stuffed crust is calling me.
Tomorrow is my anniversary. I’m so bummed. My husband is going to work overtime during the day. Well still go out to dinner but it’s basically going to be like every other day.

Nothing spontaneous @ofthevalley ?

I went to sleep at 10+ pm something and just rolled over to this time of 2:30am. Not exactly my kind of tea but 5 1/2 hrs something along those lines hopefully I can get back to sleep before 6am?!?!?!

Yesterday was nonchalant day I waited for my parcels. Then received them around 4pm ish, I saw someone I knew when I was getting into “the energy efficient elevator” in the building and asked where they were going outside they said. But moments later I went outside and they were just gone, vanished...I decided to call them but didn’t get response. I made multiple attempts I also waited an hour sent a couple texts. Till my friend called me back I thought was odd because she must have seen my texts or something. But she said something strange like she didn’t or something like that...then I was like then whose been texting me back? Her and her man share a phone and it was him. Problem solved. Yet not really she felt deeply betrayed I couldn’t see why it’s his name on the answering machine, he’s the one that pays for the phone and he was the one who bought the phone and went with this pay as you go service monthly service provider. I don’t think she understands any of it and started accusing him of everything under the moon. I often wonder why but this time just seemed largely grandiose. I don’t like it at all it’s very triggering towards me.

the other day she came up and stayed 5 1/2hours. Talked and talked I think at this time she just likes hearing herself talk. I asked her like 5 times to change the subject because she was triggering me then the last time I asked her to leave because I couldn’t handle listening to stuff that triggers trauma in my life to flare up. I believe I made the right move for my own sanity.

It’s exactly 12 days to my 3 year anniversary I think I might throw myself a party. I bought cheesecake truffles at the grocery store on Tuesday, which will either be dessert or an appetizer I am not sure yet.

It pisses me off that in Instagram I saw my sister and her friend posted the same picture that said “1 week away” it was of Banff. I was devastated this was the trip I had planned out last summer and was told that I wasn’t going in the middle of May. I wanted to rip my sister into shreds, but seeing these posts I wanted to knock her out. But the staff at my supportive housing complex said they do it for me beat her up for me. I think they were joking but half serious.

Anyway I typed a book here...

I’m sorry you’re feeling that way. Sometimes ours brains can play tricks on us and convince usof things like that. Don’t listen, as everyone has said, you have a lot of people who do care about you including me. So... I hope your are feeling better today.

I’m so excited. I booked our reservations for August. We’ll be ON the mountain in a 3 bedroom 2 bathroom townhouse. There are 2 outdoor pools. 1 indoor pool, 2 outdoor hot tubs, 1 indoor hot tub, tennis courts, an amusement park where you can mountain bike down the mountain (my son will be stoked). There are miles of mountain biking trails and hiking trails, there’s a river for fishing...all things to keep my son off his phone and occupied. There is a shopping center nearby for local goods. Restaurants at the resort.
I’m so freaking excited.

That does sound really good!

I hope so. The kids kicked *** this year and deserve something special. So do I

@ofthevalley: where is “on the mountain”? Some place close to you?

Yeah it’s a state away in the mountains. It’s actually situated on the side of the mountain.

I've actually been sleeping normal the past 2 days!

Went to the gym yesterday. I was so nervous about leaving the house to go somewhere I don't technically HAVE to go but I did it!

Omg I’ve already sucked down a pot of coffee. That’s terrible. I can’t help it. There is nothing else to do. Smoke and drink. Bad habits die hard.