Roll Call 127

I want today to go by fast so I can have the next three days off. I’ll probably be bored but it’s paid vacation so yolo. I’ll find something to do.

I feel kind of off today. Like almost don’t feel real again. It’s weird and kind of annoying. I don’t feel grounded I feel kind of floaty.

I have an Xbox 360!!!

redyeing my hair darker purple

My voices are gone but I'm trying to provoke them by making political posts on another website to see what if anything happens.

I'll probably go get a Coke in a while. I always think the roommate I hate spits in my drinks when I'm out with my vape. She probably doesn't but I can't be sure.

Ugh so much work. I’m really not into it. I’m so upset. I called the prescription benefit people to find out how much my meds would be this month and it’s $230. Like I have extra just kicking around. It’s our $100 deductible screwing me.

Morning

Having coffee

I m pleased...

So not into working today. I mean I’m almost at lunch so it’s not too long left of the day but man I just wanna be done already I feel weird.

Seeing my psychdoc this morning. I am doing well so have good news to tell him. I am happy and stable somewhat. The voices I hear are whispers and don't bother me that much. I feel great. I have more problems with apathy and lethargy than voices though. I sleep a lot and know if I did not have things to do, I would sleep all day and do nothing. So, I must wake up daily and do something constructive even if it just means brushing my teeth and taking a shower. I have to work so I wake up during the week days to go to work. Its not bad but waking up is so hard to do when one feels apathetic. I do wake up though and try to enjoy the day. Life is short to sleep it away but sleep feels good for awhile. I ramble and must go to bed now. Good Night!

gmorning..

Happy sunny day

I like your avatar

Ying Yang. Karma. Soon all your suffering will be the opposite.

Little good in bad little bad in good.

I'm going to meditate

I wish I had a float tank

Those can actually trigger psychosis....

It feels like the news is talking to me again/responding to my political posts on a different site.

Whats a float tank

Is it the same as a sensory deprivation tank?

Yes. I believe so.

Apparently there is a place in Edinburgh that has them. I think it’d be cool to try.

I feel very depressed

I forgot to take my AD

Ive been extremely hungry for many days. We have food but its ramen and pb&j. Wish i didnt have to eat it everyday. Been living off that.

I feel dizzy

Hey guys. Long day. Busy day at work and lots of driving the kids around.
Now I’m just sitting here waiting for either my husband to get home or to leave to pick up my daughter. Whichever comes first.
My vacation is all planned out. Right down to where we’ll stop for drinks. Ugh it’s 4 hours away and then another 6 hours of driving around over the 4 days and then 3 hours home from our final destination. I hate driving. I can’t wait to go but I don’t want to wish away the summer.

My mom and i got into argument

She keeps mentioning how i missed my grandpas birthday and i couldve went. I was gonna go with the bf but he had to work. Summer is his busy season. Its when he gets most of his money.

I keep begging her to let me go in the fall with the bf but i dont think shes gonna budge and it went over into an argument.