Roll Call 141!

Sometimes psychotic · Jan 02, 2019, 07:28 PM

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I keep getting intense suicidal urges. I'm not sure why because there's nothing that's upsetting me and I love my life and don't want to die. I just feel like my mind will implode especially in the evening. I feel so agitated and angry

Very important to talk to your pdoc it could be a medication inducing this.....

Blue_Bird · Jan 02, 2019, 07:29 PM

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Very important to talk to your pdoc it could be a medication inducing this.....

I will, I see her on the 15th

Blue_Bird · Jan 02, 2019, 07:34 PM

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I keep soap and bath salts that are kinda luxury items, I even had a pair of silk pjs once....anything that’s nice and appeals to each of the five senses goes in. You have to keep it updated with things like chocolate gift cards etc, that way if you want to buy something but are broke you still can. So like something for iTunes to get new music or amazon to get whatever fun thing you wouldn’t normally buy. It’s nice to have photos, that’s where I keep my photo books...it reminds me of the good times and good people I have in my life. I have some books on dinosaurs like art books and a graphic novel.....stuff that’s easy and fun.

That's awesome, I'll have to do something like that

Angelique67 · Jan 02, 2019, 08:17 PM

I'm still in the grip of whatever I have. They took blood this morning, I don't know why. I haven't eaten all day, just had a spoonful of chicken stew at lunch. Now I'm drinking cold water. I vaped too. Wish I could do it inside.

I hope everyone will feel better.

newtus · Jan 02, 2019, 08:26 PM

Speaking of which.

I left my self care box at home. My dads. I brought the bear from it that my dad gave me tho.

ofthevalley · Jan 02, 2019, 09:04 PM

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I'm still in the grip of whatever I have. They took blood this morning, I don't know why. I haven't eaten all day, just had a spoonful of chicken stew at lunch. Now I'm drinking cold water. I vaped too. Wish I could do it inside.

I hope everyone will feel better.

Omg still? I’m sorry

. I hope you’ll feel better soon.

Jan 02, 2019, 09:14 PM

I just watched a belly dancer for 5 minutes. It was amazing. B)

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2019, 09:20 PM

I feel like I'm going insane with this liberal and conservative thing where conservatives use the word cuck a lot and now I believe there are two genders but I see mushrooms have different genders and I consumed their knowledge chemical and shouldn't have but I don't regret and I know secrets about the government or secret societies. What can I do but laugh at something scary? That's people's reactions.. it's like coming from other dimensions..

I need to cool off a bit from my life and go on a vacation. Could be the vyvanse doing this but I don't want to admit that.

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2019, 09:22 PM

It's all fun and games until it becomes too scary

Jan 02, 2019, 09:27 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I feel like I'm going insane with this liberal and conservative thing where conservatives use the word cuck a lot and now I believe there are two genders but I see mushrooms have different genders and I consumed their knowledge chemical and shouldn't have but I don't regret and I know secrets about the government or secret societies. What can I do but laugh at something scary? That's people's reactions.. it's like coming from other dimensions..

I need to cool off a bit from my life and go on a vacation. Could be the vyvanse doing this but I don't want to admit that.

Are you sure the mushrooms don't have a gender but a sex? As for the gender debate, I think people have the right to choose which best fits tthem even if instead of a F or M, if they use X instead because they are nonbinary. In nature anything goes. the naturalist fallacy would say nonbinary is not a thing, but then if you look at nature, nature is so diverse if we really search hard enough we'll find that most things arise naturally.

FOr instance, that being gay is a bad thing because it's not natural, but if you look at nature... there's a lot going on there that we have to accept if we use the word nature like that.

downandlonely · Jan 02, 2019, 09:32 PM

There aren't even always two distinct human sexes. There are intersex people who are sometimes born with male and female sex organs. And some of them look like girls on the outside until they hit puberty and it runs out they were male and had testicles inside their bodies. So gender is not binary, but neither is sex.

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2019, 09:34 PM

I just think about putting mushroom A that is sex 1 with preference to mushroom B that is sex 2 together except mushroom A has more so of a preference to mushroom C than mushroom B but might procreate with mushroom B sometimes.

If you put 2000 mushroom A, B and C together, it's more likely that .. idk there's chances and law of ODD's put together that make offspring to be more likely but not if the experiment is repeated.

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2019, 09:37 PM

I forget the word that has meaning for thinking that people are living in an object such as your hand for example or inside a chair.. having their own civilization..

Desoxyn · Jan 02, 2019, 09:49 PM

Tired myself out.. *sleeps*

Blue_Bird · Jan 03, 2019, 07:21 AM

Good morning, I slept for 8 hours.

I'm going to work on some mindfulness stuff today and getting some ideas for the self care box

newtus · Jan 03, 2019, 08:03 AM

Morning

Having coffee

junkDNA · Jan 03, 2019, 09:17 AM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I just think about putting mushroom A that is sex 1 with preference to mushroom B that is sex 2 together except mushroom A has more so of a preference to mushroom C than mushroom B but might procreate with mushroom B sometimes.

If you put 2000 mushroom A, B and C together, it's more likely that .. idk there's chances and law of ODD's put together that make offspring to be more likely but not if the experiment is repeated.

Some people think that the manna references in the Bible was actually psilocybin

Blue_Bird · Jan 03, 2019, 10:15 AM

Went to the library and got some art "How to" drawing books

cogladaid · Jan 03, 2019, 10:51 AM

Listening to music while working and this song came on and it made me cry a little. Brought back so many memories of ~2013. I had this close friend in England and we would chat all the time. She got me into this band. Also was virtually there for me when I was going off the deep end. Maybe it wasn’t a healthy relationship. We drifted apart and I found out a few days after it happened but she died in early January 2017. She was a sweetheart and I miss her. I wish we hadn’t drifted apart. It was probably for the best though.

I still think of her sometimes and it makes me sad.

Blue_Bird · Jan 03, 2019, 11:31 AM

My stuff came today

Blue_Bird · Jan 03, 2019, 11:32 AM

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Listening to music while working and this song came on and it made me cry a little. Brought back so many memories of ~2013. I had this close friend in England and we would chat all the time. She got me into this band. Also was virtually there for me when I was going off the deep end. Maybe it wasn’t a healthy relationship. We drifted apart and I found out a few days after it happened but she died in early January 2017. She was a sweetheart and I miss her. I wish we hadn’t drifted apart. It was probably for the best though.

I still think of her sometimes and it makes me sad.

I'm sorry about your friend

Blue_Bird · Jan 03, 2019, 11:41 AM

I had something similar happen. I had a really good friend and we talked all the time then we kind of drifted apart because I was busy with school. I found out in mid or late February2017 that he had got into a car accident that New Year and was in a coma on life support which his family took him off, it was so sad, he was such a nice person. He was in the group I attended when I lived in Kentucky.