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Feb 09, 2019, 03:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Thanks

I’m not prone to hangovers these days. Certainly not in the traditional sense I was used to.

It’s more the combined effect and withdrawals creeping up. It’s increased gradually over the months.

I think I’m just in a delicate place right now, having come off olanzapine and dealing with large alcohol consumption. It’s becoming too much.

Are you drinking to self-medicate? I drink to relieve my flat affect so that I can actually feel something. Is it specifically to stop anxiety or is it compounded for some other reason? How much on average do you drink?
Trigger quotes added because drinking is not recommended:

Possible trigger:

What helps me is that I stay completely away from Liquor because it's such a slippery slop. Double shots take 3 second to drink while a beer will take me ten minutes. in the past 3 1/2 hours I have drank 4 beers. Since nothing is Euphoric or pleasant, I tend to drink to feel merely pleasant. Euphoria hasn't been felt longer than I my memory can recall.

I totally get it though. I would drink 2 beers a month until this wicked illness arised.

Angelique67 · Feb 09, 2019, 06:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Thanks

I’m not prone to hangovers these days. Certainly not in the traditional sense I was used to.

It’s more the combined effect and withdrawals creeping up. It’s increased gradually over the months.

I think I’m just in a delicate place right now, having come off olanzapine and dealing with large alcohol consumption. It’s becoming too much.

There's nothing wrong with needing help. Or asking for help. Have you told your pdoc about it? Or your regular doc?

Angelique67 · Feb 09, 2019, 06:17 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

This is a pretty big decision so I understand why you’re confused.

Yes. If it were my decision and responsibility I'd do my best to leave. But it's not only up to me, my friend has been paying for my support all the years up until I landed here. I can't just take that for granted.

Loial · Feb 10, 2019, 08:40 AM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

Are you drinking to self-medicate? I drink to relieve my flat affect so that I can actually feel something. Is it specifically to stop anxiety or is it compounded for some other reason? How much on average do you drink?
Trigger quotes added because drinking is not recommended:

Possible trigger:

What helps me is that I stay completely away from Liquor because it's such a slippery slop. Double shots take 3 second to drink while a beer will take me ten minutes. in the past 3 1/2 hours I have drank 4 beers. Since nothing is Euphoric or pleasant, I tend to drink to feel merely pleasant. Euphoria hasn't been felt longer than I my memory can recall.

I totally get it though. I would drink 2 beers a month until this wicked illness arised.

Possible trigger:

It’s a complex issue. I started problem drinking after chickenfoot died. And at college I’d often buy a 4 pack of beer after class. I guess I was self medicating in some regards initially over the death and then to relieve anxiety. Now... I just drink because it’s routine and I feel I need it to enjoy myself. The truth is though after a week off I can get into a good routine and manage without but then I always slip up fancying “just a few beers”. Withdrawal is now becoming an issue so for the moment I’m keeping drinking to stave that off until I see my GP.

I drink a lot. Eight 440ml cans a beer a day. Occasionally even 12. I maybe drink for a week or so then have a couple of days off and start again. I don’t usually drink spirits although I have very occasionally. Those are the only times I’ve been sick or blacked out.

I made a thread in the addiction sub forum if you’re interested.

Loial · Feb 10, 2019, 08:42 AM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

There's nothing wrong with needing help. Or asking for help. Have you told your pdoc about it? Or your regular doc?

My pdoc is aware I’ve had problems. He offered me a referral but I said I wanted to get on top of it by myself. I’ve not really said much about it to him recently but will when I next see him.

I’m going to call my GP on Monday and should get an appointment the same day. That’ll start the ball rolling.

Loial · Feb 10, 2019, 08:47 AM

Morning/Afternoon,

Been quiet around here overnight! Hope everyone has been having fun.

I’m okay. Just a usual day for me. I’m currently watching Blow. It’s a film about George Jung who was a drug trafficker. Seen it before but not for a few years. It’s good.

ofthevalley · Feb 10, 2019, 09:10 AM

You are awesome loial. You got this!

Angelique67 · Feb 10, 2019, 09:53 AM

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Originally Posted by Loial

My pdoc is aware I’ve had problems. He offered me a referral but I said I wanted to get on top of it by myself. I’ve not really said much about it to him recently but will when I next see him.

I’m going to call my GP on Monday and should get an appointment the same day. That’ll start the ball rolling.

That sounds like a good plan. Maybe you can get a referral again.

Angelique67 · Feb 10, 2019, 09:58 AM

My friend is visiting today. We'll probably go to our brunch cafe. They serve mainly egg dishes. They have quit using plastic straws so I'm thinking of bringing my own but I'm afraid they'll be pissed off. What a stupid thing to worry about.

ofthevalley · Feb 10, 2019, 10:06 AM

Morning! Drinking coffee.
Bringing my daughter to the mall today. I’m going to run to Target and Yankee while I’m there. Still looking for an oil diffuser. Then I’m going to run to the soap lady for my husband. He’s in love with the goats milk soap.
Other than that just hanging out. Scotty’s coming by for a while.
I’ve decided to pick knitting back up. I haven’t knit since my mom died. Reminds me of her. I’m going to knit myself a wool blanket. I’m currently on the search for the perfect yarn. I’m going to be a jerk and find the colorway I want and have one of my mom friends replicate it. Since it’s wool it will be pricey for the yarn...id rather give that $ to someone I know who needs it.

Blue_Bird · Feb 10, 2019, 10:58 AM

So tired

junkDNA · Feb 10, 2019, 11:18 AM

had a good night last night

my roommate said it was her best birthday ever and kept saying thank you to me

she invited a boy she's crushing on and we went downtown. I bought her 3 drinks... then we came home and drank and chilled

It felt good that I helped give her a good birthday. dare I say I might have felt warm fuzzies over it!! maybe I'm not the cold hearted sociopath I thought!!

Blue_Bird · Feb 10, 2019, 01:29 PM

Took a 3 hour nap

ofthevalley · Feb 10, 2019, 02:03 PM

Hey! Drinking more coffee lol.
I’ve had a busy day so far. Cooked, cleaned, did laundry, got gas, went to the atm, drove all over creation picking my daughters friends up, brought them to Starbucks then the mall, went to Yankee but I skipped target, went to see my guy, and then came home and cooked again.
Now I’m waiting to go pick up the kids and bring them all home. Secretly I love being the designated driver. I hate when my kids are in cars with other people.

downandlonely · Feb 10, 2019, 02:04 PM

@ofthevalley I hate driving. Will you be my chauffeur? lol

ofthevalley · Feb 10, 2019, 02:15 PM

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Originally Posted by downandlonely

@ofthevalley I hate driving. Will you be my chauffeur? lol

Haha. I don’t love driving either. I just like it better than the alternative. And I don’t drive in the snow lol.

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 10, 2019, 03:27 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Possible trigger:

It’s a complex issue. I started problem drinking after chickenfoot died. And at college I’d often buy a 4 pack of beer after class. I guess I was self medicating in some regards initially over the death and then to relieve anxiety. Now... I just drink because it’s routine and I feel I need it to enjoy myself. The truth is though after a week off I can get into a good routine and manage without but then I always slip up fancying “just a few beers”. Withdrawal is now becoming an issue so for the moment I’m keeping drinking to stave that off until I see my GP.

I drink a lot. Eight 440ml cans a beer a day. Occasionally even 12. I maybe drink for a week or so then have a couple of days off and start again. I don’t usually drink spirits although I have very occasionally. Those are the only times I’ve been sick or blacked out.

I made a thread in the addiction sub forum if you’re interested.

Have you ever talked to a T about chickenfoot, it seems to have hugely impacted your life.....

Loial · Feb 10, 2019, 03:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Have you ever talked to a T about chickenfoot, it seems to have hugely impacted your life.....

I don’t have a T. It did at the time. What with us chatting all the time and her sending me a suicide message. But I’m over it now. Still makes me sad but I remember all the good chats now rather than the negatives.

newtus · Feb 10, 2019, 03:41 PM

I only remember the negatives.

She stalked me on skype and here and facebook. I couldnt get away. She was telling me all sorts of horrible things.

Loial · Feb 10, 2019, 03:49 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I only remember the negatives.

She stalked me on skype and here and facebook. I couldnt get away. She was telling me all sorts of horrible things.

I don’t know what to say. She was a really nice person when you got to know her.

Feb 10, 2019, 04:09 PM

My grandad is in hospital and it's not looking good...

Loial · Feb 10, 2019, 04:10 PM

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Originally Posted by unsure123

My grandad is in hospital and it's not looking good...

I’m sorry. I remember when my gran took a turn for the worse. It’s not easy.

Feb 10, 2019, 04:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

I’m sorry. I remember when my gran took a turn for the worse. It’s not easy.

My parents went up to see him and he's in a lot of pain and he's very confused.

Loial · Feb 10, 2019, 04:14 PM

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Originally Posted by unsure123

My parents went up to see him and he's in a lot of pain and he's very confused.

Did something happen or has his health just deteriorated suddenly?

Feb 10, 2019, 04:19 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Did something happen or has his health just deteriorated suddenly?

He went in to hospital due to fluid on the lungs but then he had a heart attack while he was in there. My mum used to be a nurse and she doesn't think he's got much longer left. I feel bad for my nan because she was robbed and hurt not long ago and now she's gotta deal with this.

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