Roll Call 145

I take 1 fish oil in the morning with vitamin D, vyvanse, atenolol.. 1 fish oil in the afternoon with vitamin C.. 1 fish oil in the evening.. melatonin at night..

Do any of y'all ever get in a mood where you can't tell if you feel great or horrible?

Yes idk how to explain it but i feel scared too

Those sound delish 😀

I usually get scared and want to go over to my grandmas or moms house.

I don't like being alone when I feel like that.

Anyway im kinda feeling it today, I definitely was earlier, but im feeling better now.

That sounds painful. I hope it will heal soon. Your doc might remove it to get rid of the fungal infection. So hopefully it will be better than new.

I agree! Beautiful drawings!

I feel crappy today for some reason. My arms and knee ache and it's not getting better.

maybe ask for an ibuprofen? when is the next time you see a doctor?

Thanks.

I figure the fungal infection probably made the nail weak. I can’t have hit it that hard off my own heel of all things...

my mom gets fungal infections real bad... it's the junkstore shoes she use to buy. i'd avoid junk store shoes.

Took a shower, have a scented wax cube melting. Did some meditation/relaxation stuff.

Going to watch some stuff on Netflix now

Sound like my afternoon....I got new bath fizz so I had to take a bath or course, lavender mint. Watched some of the 100 on Netflix. Now listening to music with the fake Netflix fire 🔥.

Just talked to the bf

We did some compromising

He said he will spend more time with me. Well he didnt say that but thats what i understood. But he said by 8:30-9 he wants to play his games.

I said i will get out of bed more, ill try.

I get ibuprofen everyday, lol. Weird to have pain anyway. If a nurse makes a note about it, I guess the docs here follow up after like 3 days. For some reason they don't do anything for you before 3 days pass.

Just read the thread about

I told my mom that I didnt want her to leave work cuz then I'll feel alone but she's working until 8 instead of 4

Yes. It causes nails to separate from the nail bed. I had nail fungus too, on at least one of my nails. They were going to remove it (this was sometime in the 90s) but I chickened out at the last minute. After a lot of years it may have healed by itself because it's not that damaged anymore. There's a man here who has a really tortured thumb nail. It got twisted into a long claw that looks like tree bark.

And a nice nurse has some really bad fingernails, possibly from her nails never drying out.

I'm so proud of myself. I finished reading the Chronicles of Narnia (the whole series in one book). It took me several months, I used to read like 4 or 5 books a month but have had such a hard time concentrating recently. It was so good

I took a high quality fish oil pill that was potent with the ingredient for the brain, and a good amount for the heart, but it never made any difference. I started taking it years before the psychosis and a couple of years after psychosis, but I never felt a difference so I just gave it up.

Tired of my mom

So fcking tired

Yeah it’s supposed to help cognition so I thought it might be worth a trial....

Took seroquel cuz I felt like I was losing it and would have a panic attack. I feel so tired. I'm going to sleep when I get home.

I'm going to buy lemons so I can make lemon juice at night then put it in something to put beside my bed when I wake up with lots of sugar in it to take my meds cuz my sugar is probably low when I wake up. It will be like coffee but with dextroamphetamine instead.

I was having thoughts that I'm an alien on drugs and this life is my trip but in reality I'm just transported to being human on planet earth for a prize of an alien encrypted billion dollars through DNA rights of the most sane to know reality as a human on earth and figure out through reincarnation of becoming an animal.

Finally got a good amount of sleep!

i wish i can say the same... ha

Sorry you're still struggling with sleep Do you have anything to take that can help?