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#476
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I think there is an ebb and flow to weight. I think it’s pretty common to gain and lose the same 10 or 20 pounds throughout life. I bounce around a lot usually 5-10 lbs. I try to ignore those and only focus if I go above that.
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Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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![]() Blue_Bird
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#477
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My account is overdrawn again cuz our mattress payment. I have no idea what to do. I have no gas or money. And i need to send this phone off that i sold for money on an app.
Im so lost. We are so dead broke.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Anonymous40796, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#478
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Have a amber cashmere wax tart melting, relaxing since it's a rainy day
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, ofthevalley, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#479
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Im starting to get depressed
I also havent combed my hair in a week and its matted
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Anonymous40796, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#480
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I just asked my mom for help. She wont help me.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Anonymous40796, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#481
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Im drinking now
Starting to get depressed
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#482
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My mom said “sorry. But you are gonna have to figure that out on your own”
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#483
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I’m so sorry Newtus, I know how it feels to be broke. It’s extremely stressful especially when we can’t even afford our basic needs. I’m sorry I’m not good with advice, I can only offer a hug
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One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers
and millions of butterflies 🌹🦋 |
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#484
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Now my mom wont answer her phone
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Desoxyn, SlumberKitty
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#485
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Drank a vyvanse with an energy drink. Gonna stay on the vyvanse cuz it's the same thing as adderall except vyvanse lasts longer..
I see the doctor tomorrow. Gonna tell him to refill the beta blocker, prescribe 40mg vyvanse and maybe lower the seroquel to 50mg instead of 100mg. I have 14 ativan left so I don't need a refill. Then hopefully I'll have my **** together and on the way to complete mental stability.. |
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#486
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Don't drink too much tho
Alcohol lowers inhibitions of whatever you're currently feeling. So if you're depressed, you're more likely to think, voice and act on the depressive thoughts. I had a bipolar tenant that stopped taking his lithium and started drinking. Crashed into a few cop cars and is in jail. My moms friend with bipolar was a complete train wreck when she was drinking last week because she told me she felt depressed. A friend with schizophrenia in the psych ward drank alcohol as soon as she got out of the hospital and came back psychotic. From my own experience too.. I was manic or something and drove to the liquor store drunk without a license and was speeding while it was snowing.. |
#487
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I was supposed to see my T tonight but she had a family emergency and cancelled. I get it, stuff happens, but I feel like crying and I need her today. I had some SUI thoughts over the weekend and now no T. Won't see her until May 6th. May as well be another century. Sorry to be a downer. I'm really upset about not seeing my T. HUGS Kit
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
![]() Blue_Bird, Sometimes psychotic
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#488
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![]() Sketching Pokémon.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, Erti, Loial, ofthevalley, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#489
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Kinda upset cuz everyone in my life even a few people here kept telling me to move out of my dads. Now saying to move back in.
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
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#490
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Newtus we had no idea of your finances except what you told us...as I recall you bought the mattress after moving out as well as the watches....that put you over solvency. I think you’ve learned a lot moving out and you’ll be more ready when you can finally afford a place of your own. I’m not saying move back today but when the lease ends....I don’t think it’s sustainable right now. If you have another solution that’s great but I can’t think of one.
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#491
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Quote:
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#492
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I don't know. They said they would put me on the cancellation list if someone cancels. She has really crappy availability to begin with.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
#493
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Using Khan Academy to work on proficiency in math
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, Loial, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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#494
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Part of me says tell them you’re feeling sui but another part is concerned they’ll send you to the ER.....
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#495
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They are really good at math...
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#496
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Thanks SP. I'm not going to tell the receptionist that I'm feeling sui because she'll either call the ambulance or tell me to go to the hospital, but I will go to the hospital if I am unsafe. Promise.
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Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
![]() Loial, Sometimes psychotic
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#497
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Quote:
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#498
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The vyvanse and energy drink gave me motivation today when the adderall doesn't. I finished raking the yard and cleaned up all the cigarette butts. Handed in my essay now I have to do an assignment, finish another essay and then I'm done my course. I'm going to go for a walk with my mom when she's finished work. I was listening to a really good podcast today that I continued on from last night since I stopped cuz I had a panic attack.
I realize that my panic attacks are from severe HPPD. "Hallucinogen persisting perception disorder (HPPD) is a disorder in which a person has flashbacks of visual hallucinations or distortions experienced during a previous hallucinogenic drug experience, sometimes with the same feelings experienced before, which cause distress or impairment in work or everyday life." In the psychedelic culture, lots of people usually have a few benzos on hand in case they need to stop a bad trip. I get flashbacks and benzos help to stop it. I always knew my panic attacks weren't normal panic attacks because I also feel psychotic on them and the doctor confirmed in the ER that the fluoxetine made me psychotic. I think it's because it works on serotonin like psychedelics do.. I feel motivated though for the first time in a while.. |
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#499
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Im about to pass out
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"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Anonymous40796, Desoxyn, SlumberKitty
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#500
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Feeling like a failure in life. Wrote about it in my journal, disappointed in myself
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Anonymous40796, Desoxyn, Loial, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
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