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I just ate a burger and onion rings. I feel disgusting.

My mom has ramped up my eating disorder. Ive been walking and restricting more. Just ate this and i feel like shyt.

Im not the type to throw up cuz i hate my body, im more of a restricter.

Nah i dont need to get back into that. I need to keep my head straight. I really need to restrrict a bit tho cuz i overeat a lil too much. I just dont need to take it to extremes.

Why not focus on health? Walking is healthy, eating burgers is ok occasionally but not all the time, etc.

I suppose. Yea we dont order out a lot but i still feel really disgusting about it.

Try to see it as a special occasion or treat.....

I said I wanted an eating disorder which means to go through with the light one i already have. What's so hard about that to understand?

But most people agreed with your post so they're taking your side instead of mine. But my situation is very valid you mixed up *****.

I'm done here. People just tolerate me here and dont take a second to think and just pick sides when this is a support forum. Not some tight group that people think it's meant to be.

Judging other people that join this roll call so quickly. Well I guess I'm the bad person and should leave which is perfectly fine for me.

Bye.

I hope you don't leave Tweaky

*hugs* Tweaky.
I know you’re in a tough place right now. I hope you are feeling Better soon. Come back when you’re ready. We’re here for you.

It's 5am and I've been trying to sleep all night.

I think I might have to go to rehab and withdraw from benzos.

I'm scared

Sorry JunkDNA. I'm not myself.

Please stay here liam

I'll stay because I don't know how to handle my problems by myself. I need support or things will be scary because my family doesn't know how to handle things like other people with the illness.

I'm going to walk to the gas station at 5am to get smokes. I'm supposed to be skiing today. I suppose it's ok to stay up for 30 hours or so then I'll go to sleep and take zero Ativan or Xanax and won't drink.

Idk when I don't take a stimulant in the day, I can't sleep at night but I thought the Seroquel would help but it didn't tonight. The alcohol could be making me not sleep because I drank before my moms bf picked me up to get new ski's because I think the whole thing is weird - my mom being with a married man and everyone keeping secrets from me.

Then junkdna makes comments like the soldiers do and I went off the edge so maybe I can't sleep because of that. Either way it's MY FAULT and my moms fault for being so selfish.

Also I wasn't even being serious about the eating disorder. But then I deluded myself into thinking I was being serious because I'm suicidal and thought well if I'm going to die from an eating disorder, I might as well be serious about it.

I hope that makes sense..

They shouldn't be keeping secrets from me and dodging the subject whenever I ask about it. I'm an adult now. I don't have to deal with that ****. And they're all drinking and my mom says "I drank too much" then I have to pour the wine down the drain and half the time she needs to go to the hospital because she's having heart arrythmias.

I promise to try to talk to you more desox

I just never know what to say and some days when im exhausted its hard to read your long paragraphs.

Thx

I should try and sleep for an hour or two..

Add me back on snapchat lol

Idk if u blocked me or us but for some reason i cant add you back

Ugh...had my son’s re-entry meeting for school. The guy was a total ****. Totally threatened to kick my kid out of the school if he ever puts his hands on another student. *sigh* I get it but wtf the other kid is technically an adult and he threatened to shoot our dogs.
Apparently the other kids mother threw a fit about it. She wants the school to pay for his doctors bill @@.
It was a 1 minute fight...he got punched in the face/head a few times. Grow the **** up. Perhaps your ADULT child shouldn’t threaten and try to push around 16 yr olds.
So on our end it’s over but from the sounds on the other end my kid may be in for it at school.
Stupid testosterone! He’s doing so well in school but this...just puts a target on his back. I honestly can’t guarantee he won’t fight again. He’s young, tough, prideful, and really really protective of his family. I try to remind him to look to the future...don’t get dragged down because of “disrespect” but...
Sucks cuz he’s like the best kid.

Thats stupid valley. The other kid threatened. and yours was punching in self defense. That doesnt sound right that your kid got reprimanded more. Very stupid.

Stupid puppy tore up the trash in the backyard. Plus its raining. Ugh she got into the bathroom trash that was in with the cat litter trash. Poop scattered everywhere plus my pads are rained on and chewed up.

Makes me sick

I don’t think most people agreed, most people stayed out of it.

Ugh...I hate hate hate garbage guts!
My Sophie was awful when we first got her. Every.damn.time we left she’d get into it. Took about a year to break her of that.
Do you have toys outside for her to play with? She might get bored and be looking for trouble.

Not outside maybe i should put some out

Zeus is obsessed with getting used teabags out of the bin lol it's probably my fault because I make him tea and put it in his water bowl.

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Im sneezin like a btch. Fiance sprayed febreeze all over the bedroom. Then i put one spurt of the musk my mom gave me out into it too.

Damn he fckin sprayed like a crazy man. Its fckn wit me

I would throw a ball out there or something she can chase/bite.