Roll Call 151

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper I only take geodon once a night in the evening with dinner. So maybe this is withrawal since i barely had any thing to eat yesterday with my geodon, like half a burrito with it. Today I ate enough with my geodon though. It could also be that the past two night I haven't taken Seroquel or my benzo like I normally do before bed because they don't help me sleep anyway usually. But last night I only had a few hours of sleep and woke up at 330am and couldn't really fall back to sleep. Good to know when I do increase my Trileptal I may have stomach problems. I'll up it starting Friday when I see my psychiatrist. Thanks guys.

Ody you take the same meds i do. Geodon of any strength has to be taken with 500 calories it depends on that much to be distributed. at 350 you get less than half and at 150cals not even 10%. So good idea to take it with a whole burrito.
How much seroquel at night. Have you tried remeron?
michigan rules ody!!
Tams

geodon 80mg at night , 20 mg in the morning
seroquel 600mg at night 100mg morning and afternoon
Remeron 30 at bed
Trintellix 10 mg mornings
Buspar 10mg 3x a day

I was watching Jim Kwik speak and I took notes. Here's free notes for you all;

Left side of the page: Take notes
Questions are the answer
Right side of the page: Make notes

How can I use this?
Why must I use this?
When will I use this?

Information
Inspiration
Implementation
Integration

- Read a page or 5 pages and if you don’t use what you’re reading, you’re basically illiterate.
- Dozens of pages a day you’re reading but starving for practical wisdom and inspiration.
- More competence more confidence
- Self awareness is a superpower - Tap into it
- Reasons reap results
- Genius leaves clues
- 40% of what you do every day is habit
- Put first things first
- Everybody is your teacher - Everything can be your teacher - Problems we have in life are our teachers
- If failure isn’t an option, then there’s no success
- Use your calendar (What people prioritize, first things first).
- Many regrets that people have is that they’ve lived their lives for somebody else
- Kind person will tell you what you need to hear, a nice person will tell you what you want to hear.
- If you’re giving into peoples expectations - The people that care about you the most, you give them the power to hold you back.
- It’s hard to change another person - Look how hard it is to change yourself.
- Metalearning (The science of how to learn - read faster, learn faster) (Like metacognition - Thinking about thought)
- Learn with the intention of teaching what you’re learning.
- When reading, mind wanders and can’t concentrate (Because you’re reading too slow. If you read faster, you have more focus and take in more).
- Inner voice (Don’t listen to this). Limitation when reading. Read faster.
- Reading in print is better. Reading is more active than listening to someone talk.
- It’s not necessary to say the words in your head to understand those words. Example: “Of” sounds like “Ov” so you won’t notice how many “f” there are while reading out loud and counting “f’s”.
- Practice counting while reading.
- Eyes are attracted to motion. Pacer while reading. (Using finger).

Microdosing tetrahydrocannabinol is giving me more motivation. I thought it was just in my head but it's not.

How long have u been on seroquel

When I ran out of mine I got super nauseas and vomited a lot. Might want to try to taper

Not going to group today, so I only have one more day left, Friday.

Feeling crappy today...all the way around.
Going to my father in law’s house to pack up all his clothes. All alone...where he died...****ing sucks. Do not want.

I started a free giveaway of my book but I'm doing it differently. Hopefully no one is put out by this but, I'm just asking for them to message me with their address so I can save 10 bucks on each one given away, so I can give them author copies instead of retail copies. There is no difference between the two, just that the author saves when giving them away.

Wow. My roommate just talked major trash about me to her sister while in the living room. She told her I never clean and all I do is mow the lawn, take out the trash, and shovel snow, which she said she does a lot anyways. She didn't shovel the snow once and mowed the lawn once so far this year. She apparently forgot I've never been late on rent once, and meanwhile, she needs to borrow $400 from this this week because so far she's 22 days late with rent like every month. So after she said all of that I asked her if she was mad at me, and she laughed and brushed it off. So I'm going to marinate on her negativity now. I thought we were friends.

But I’m overseas..

Went out to breakfast in the morning, was nice. But there was this guy like twice my age hitting on me so it was kind of awkward

Morning. I went out to swim with my sister today. It was so relaxing to put my head under water and silent all the negative noises above the ground. Also, I was lacking of vitamin D as I had been locking myself in my dark room all the time. My room is as gloomy as my soul.

Ew creepy

Good Morning all, I'm sleepy because I took anti-anxiety meds when I got to work. Seems that is how I get through work somedays. I SH-ed over the weekend and I really messed up. I should have gone to the hospital and got it stitched up but I didn't want to go because I was afraid I would have to do a psych eval and then I'd fail it and I'd be stuck in the hospital for 72 hours. But my arm is messed up in one place pretty bad and I'm hoping it will heal halfway okay. I don't care if it scars badly, I just don't want an infection. Luckily I had a tetanus shot earlier this year so I don't need to worry about that. I see my T next Tuesday. I wish it were this Tuesday so I could tell her about my arm. It was the battery thing. I just couldn't help it. I have zero motivation to work today, so that's not good. That's probably the anxiety meds. I just want to go home. Sigh. HUGS Kit

I'm so embarrassed, I'm wearing sweats and an old tshirt and my hair is up and kind of messy because I was laying back and reading, the cable people that knock on people's door and make sure you're not paying too much or whatever bs they come up with came randomly , anyway, I look like crap lol

That was me for about 20 years until I wound up here. It was comfortable and safe mostly. Wish I could go back lol.

Me and my roommate made up. Everything is fine again, I hope at least.

I seriously don't want to be at work today. Nothing is going on that is bothering me. I'm just sleepy from the anti-anxiety meds, feeling fragile from the SH, and wanting to feel comforted. I just want to get under the blankets in my bed and zone out. But I'm trying to stay at work and be as productive as I can. I'm not expecting superwoman out of myself today. Just as much as Kit can do.

Went to my apartment for a few hours, it went well. Just trying to slowly get acclimated to living there.

I did get a bit paranoid though, just have to breathe deeply.

Hope work goes by quick for you Kit

Just forced myself to take a shower. Have been struggling with motivation lately

I might move in with my grandparents when my uncle moves out soon, just give up my apartment.

Worked 3 hours at my father in law’s house. It was no lie...86 in there. Got down to a cool 83 before I left after opening everything up. But I was productive. I emptied the entire first floor of all the clothes/jackets/shoes/outdoor gear. 12 big contractor garbage bags full of it!
Tomorrow IF it’s cooler I’ll tackle the upstairs. It’s like an oven up there so I didn’t even consider it today.
It was hard but I pushed through so that my husband didn’t have to do it. I know how emotional and mind ****ing it is to go through your parents stuff.

Good job! I need to shower too but my motivation is not there.

Got a nice, lovely, caring email from Former T today. I've emailed her but she hasn't emailed me since April, so it's been a while. She gave me some practical advice, like how to go to the hospital, not mention the battery thing, and get stitched up and out of there without getting a psych evaluation. She focused on my connection with current T and tried to strengthen that. Recently current T saw some terror in me and there's a lot I haven't told current T but she might be guessing at some of it, and Former T made that okay. It was a lovely email. It made me feel like a human, and cared for, and just, IDK, wonderful. But I feel wilted now, like I need to lay down and weep. I'm wrung out like a rag doll.

The nurse at PHP helped me take my meds just a little bit ago

And I promptly had a panic attack