Roll Call 151

Are you gonna go?

Having some paranoia right now, nothing major just enough to be annoying.

I still haven't gone back to the dentist since early in 2018. Too much dread.

Yea. I wish I didnt have to tho. I'm horrible with funerals. I dont like all the people crying around me. I cant handle it and it gives me anxiety. But Dustin asked me to go.

Saw a beautiful monarch butterfly today

Hey me too!

Beautiful pic @Sometimes psychotic

Hitting the gym regularly has me feeling great. Yesterday I did a bunch of leg exercises and cardio. Today I did a bunch of shoulder exercises and some cardio.

Gonna be so strong and swole~~~

I hope you'll get through it fine.

I leave PHP friday, two more days to go.

I've been feeling like **** lately but tonight actually isn't that bad.

Hey guys! Hope everyone had an okay day.
I’m still just not quite right. Idk how to explain it.
Got my Lulu’s order today!!! I love getting new stuff.
Sadly everything kind of looks like **** on me. Nothing really fits right...too big in the hips/busts or just cut wide which looks awful. Bought them final sale though so I can’t return them. So I’m going to get them tailored (one pair of pants need to be hemmed and one dress needs to be hemmed). Then I will make myself love them
Didn’t do much today. Worked, hung out with the dogs, watched tv, went for a ride, shopped for a couple things, cooked a killer dinner, stuffed my face with cookies...now I wait to sleep.

Spaghetti and garlic bread for dinner.

Hope everyone ate good tonight!

My neck, my back, eat some cookies, dont smoke crack.

Man I forgot how time consuming online dating can be. There's a CK Lois skit that I'm living now because it's been so long since I've tried dating. It's the one where he compares dating again, after a long relationship, and to coming out of prison. All the cars are driving fast, he's dressing weird, and after the first date he just wants to... okay too dark. lol I'm not feeling dating right now really... I'd rather just meet women in person somewhere, but were is the question. I really need to work on my profile :-/ The reason for that facebook photo was to put it on my dating page.

Describe yourself honestly. People like to date people who are positive and fun and has things going on in their life.

I've learned that the hard way. Meaning, everyone that I've had interest in have a lot going on in their lives and their like super positive about life.

I'm not trying to be make u upset or weary. It's just even my fiance is like that. Hes always doing stuff either with friends. Friends mostly. Hes always talking to people and is positive about life. And he told me recently he doesnt like that I'm always depressed and sad. So I'm gonna have to really work my butt off to do things in my life that are positive. You know what I mean? Like getting activities and hobbies and make some friends. Depression is like a turn off for most people.

Take a class, women make up like 90% of classes for adults like art, flower arranging, yoga whatever you local community offers, also there are meetups you could try. Anyway find the park and recreation guide probably for fall now and sign up for something you might be interested in. Pottery?

Wide awake, might be up for the day, have quite a bit to do

woke up early, probably up for the day

I had like 6 apts at a dentist that took my Medicaid. It was zero cost to me and she fixed all my cavities, I had like 15 cavities

I had gone to a dentist before her but he refused to help me saying he wouldn't get reimbursed enough from Medicaid for all the work he'd have to do on my teeth

The dentist that did graciously help me told me that my medications cause dry mouth and that long term dry mouth can cause a lot of cavities

So it's not entirely that I don't take good care of my teeth... Good to know. The cavities and root canals are why I don't like going to the dentist... It seems like I always need something.

Yep it effects oral hygiene more than you'd think. Meds and dry mouth

Ended up falling asleep for another 4 hours, so I got a total of 9 hours which is really good

Yes!!!!!!!! Netflix is working again. There was some problems with verizon internet n the area for awhile causing connection problems

Morning

Today is fiances dads funeral.

I havent heard from fiance for almost 24 hours. He was with his friends all day and night yesterday. I just hope hes ok. It's kinda not like him to not contact me by nighttime.

Sigh...

At the food pantry