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Old Aug 29, 2019, 09:33 PM
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I feel really rundown.
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Old Aug 29, 2019, 11:17 PM
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I'm getting anxiety cuz I have 10 things to do tomorrow and my mom said she was feeling dizzy and my sister is in a dysphoric mania and having panic attacks.
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 05:17 AM
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Yea theres no IKEA here. Wed have to goto the next nearest one which is 2 hours away. I think we are gonna just get furni from big lots. It's like low price furniture. Big lots is like a thrift grocery store but they also sell furniture and patio etc stuff like that.
Big lots has cute stuff thats where I got my couch
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 08:48 AM
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Morning

I tried hard to sleep in, but I still woke up before 8am.
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 09:01 AM
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I finally slept... 11 hrs. Woke up stuff as hell. Had to take a muscle relaxer.
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 11:43 AM
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Went back to sleep and woke up to this from my fiance for my bday. Belated bday gift.

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Old Aug 30, 2019, 12:01 PM
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I went home for the weekend and stuff happened just before leaving the ward and I am paranoid and feel like I am being possessed again. Voices, walls breathing, smoke off skin. I don't feel like I am who I am. I don't feel like me. It's scarying me. Maybe I need to go back to the ward....
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 12:23 PM
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Took me 4 hours to falls asleep last night cuz I have hyper awareness of the heart. It was hell sort of. Kept waking up. I should cut down on the energy drinks.

Gonna go mountain biking at noon =]
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 01:02 PM
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Couldn't sleep well last night. Kept waking up because of pain (princess period is visiting). So my sleep was all disrupted. I still managed to get up nearly on time but I don't feel as well today as I did yesterday, emotionally. I felt really okay yesterday and today I feel like I can barely keep my head above water. IDK why. Like nothing happened except the sleep thing.
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 05:45 PM
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Hope you have a relaxing weekend Kit
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 05:53 PM
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Done mountain biking. Might go for a run tomorrow.

But right now I'm literally procrastinating everything.

WHY do I procrastinate so much? Is that ADD and schizophrenia?

I'm telling my psychiatrist to put my invega injection back to every 3 weeks instead of 4 weeks. Idk if a benzo or olanzepine would work idk.

Nothing works.

I aways have like 20-30 tabs open on my browser because I get bored. When I want to read something, I bookmark it to read later but I NEVER read it :/
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 05:55 PM
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Yall remember years ago when I said I had seen a woman strip naked and run into the street and then eventually stab a woman? That was in 2007. In my hometown.

I found out the woman that did that, she was murdered in 2015. They found her body in a dumpster in Dallas.
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 06:01 PM
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Yall remember years ago when I said I had seen a woman strip naked and run into the street and then eventually stab a woman? That was in 2007. In my hometown.

I found out the woman that did that, she was murdered in 2015. They found her body in a dumpster in Dallas.
There's no wow react so.. D: ..
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 06:05 PM
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I'm going to tell my psychiatrist about my procrastination of a million things and not focusing on one thing at a time. It's really making my life an absolute living hell. It's the main thing that is wrong with me right now.

I've been complaining about this and calling it negative symptoms but I have no idea what it is. Does anyone know?

Quarter life crisis?
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 06:25 PM
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Scheduled my wisdom tooth surgery, it's gonna be this upcoming Tuesday at 9:30AM. Not looking forward to it, but I'm ready to get it over with.
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 07:36 PM
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Feel really nauseous
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 07:39 PM
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One of my meds was increased and I ended up sleeping like 15 hours. I haven't slept that long in years
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 08:30 PM
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Scheduled my wisdom tooth surgery, it's gonna be this upcoming Tuesday at 9:30AM. Not looking forward to it, but I'm ready to get it over with.
Good luck! Let us know how it goes!
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 11:43 PM
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Wow I feel sad from the high dose cbd, 0.5mg benzo and low dose phenibut.

I just feel sad. Like I don't like my life. I don't want a house. I want to wander and do things, interacting with people and strangers.

I noticed that a lot of hitchhikers have schizophrenia. I wonder why. Their families kicked them out? Or they just want to wander?

I'm sick of the internet and intellectual absorbing of information. I don't want to go to school. I just want to live a simple life. I don't want material things. I don't want a car. I want to go somewhere else. I get cabin fever a lot.

Why not just do occasional shrooms, smoke weed, be a hippy. Give love to the world. Volunteer. I want a dog. I want to see incredible places. Surfing. Idk. I want to be on an island or live in South America or South East Asia. The Netherlands.

But I have to take this Invega injection. Why can't I just have a life times worth of it, save up money by working and leave Canada?
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Old Aug 30, 2019, 11:49 PM
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I guess I just have to go to school, find a passion and interest, continue on my path and then I can do those things when I'm older.

That's basically what I'm striving for right now. But that will change.
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Old Aug 31, 2019, 08:28 AM
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Morning

I gained all my weight I lost back. I guess from the food I ate for my birthday celebration all week.
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Old Aug 31, 2019, 08:45 AM
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Glad the library was open. Felt like I was going to pass out on the way to the pharmacy and back. Stopped in there on my way home and drank some water
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Old Aug 31, 2019, 10:40 AM
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One of my meds was increased and I ended up sleeping like 15 hours. I haven't slept that long in years
Which of your meds was increased?

My memory is still foggy from the Seroquel or Trileptal. I've been off Seroquel for about 4 days now. I hope I get it back soon. I am sleeping better though.
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Old Aug 31, 2019, 11:07 AM
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I was gonna go see my old pss today, but I'm so tired. Plus I havent had a chance to write a darn thing. I'm busy everyday, and half the days this week I havent come home til around 7 or 8pm. So I'm just staying home today. She asked to meet on monday, but I just hope to god, that between the chores I need to do, and relaxing, that i can get something written down.

I haven't had a chance to sleep in all week. Even on my off days and my bday.
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Old Aug 31, 2019, 01:33 PM
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Went on a little shopping spree but shouldn't have. I mainly got stuff we needed for the house. Then some extra stuff.
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