Roll Call 152

childofchaos831 · Aug 31, 2019, 06:38 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I take 20mg geodon in the morning and 40mg at night. I dont seem to get tired off the med alone.

Geodon made me so tired I fell asleep sitting at a red light... It also started closing up my throat. So now I have to say I'm allergic and that it gives me anaphylaxis.

newtus · Aug 31, 2019, 06:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

So.... dating update:

The woman I've been talking to, I offered a date and she can't on the weekends because of children. :-/ I can't date on the weekdays so I feel like a terrible person.

I messaged a "physician and after reading her entire profile I deduced she must be a pdoc. I sent her a message anyways. I'm sure we could learn from each other and in my profile I'm asking for someone that is psychologically savvy.

I messaged another woman but I wonder if that was wise... My entire psychosis happened at my university and I believe she is a university professor where I graduated. My hometown is a hot oven, and everytime I touch it I get burnt. I'm into education and she is obviously, and she read my profile and saw my pictures and doesn't recognize me. Do I ghost her if she responds? My story is a pretty big whopper that a lot of gossipers know about. I think I should just move on.

Be careful ghosting. Theres a new tv show on mtv that finds the people that ghosted other people.

idk. Most likely nothing will happen to you tho. I'm prob just paranoid.

newtus · Aug 31, 2019, 06:49 PM

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Originally Posted by childofchaos831

Geodon made me so tired I fell asleep sitting at a red light... It also started closing up my throat. So now I have to say I'm allergic and that it gives me anaphylaxis.

Wow ok. That's crazy. The first day I took it I slept. Maybe the second day too, but after that I was fine.

I think my level of anxiety is so high that I legit cant sleep or calm down. Sometimes benadryl doesnt even work for me. And it's not because of tolerance, cuz most times it works, but if I have anxiety at night I know I'm not gonna sleep for a couple or few days.

I know taking haldol shots at the psych hospital in the past (and other meds) they were very surprised when I'd still be awake. I could see the nurses talking to each other and looking in amazement like I was superhuman.

I have pretty extreme anxiety. So this job and living on my own and everything is truly a feat for me. Everyday.

Aug 31, 2019, 06:50 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Be careful ghosting. Theres a new tv show on mtv that finds the people that ghosted other people.

idk. Most likely nothing will happen to you tho. I'm prob just paranoid.

When I say ghost, all I mean is no reply to future conversation. I wouldn't purposely stand a person up.

newtus · Aug 31, 2019, 07:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Day Tripper

When I say ghost, all I mean is no reply to future conversation. I wouldn't purposely stand a person up.

Yes that is what I mean. I kindve was joking, but at the same time that new show is kinda scary.

newtus · Aug 31, 2019, 07:14 PM

I'm sorry if yall dont like me anymore.

No one replies to me really anymore.

Blue_Bird · Aug 31, 2019, 07:18 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I'm sorry if yall dont like me anymore.

No one replies to me really anymore.

I don't feel that way, I'm sorry you think that

newtus · Aug 31, 2019, 07:21 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I don't feel that way, I'm sorry you think that

Thanks. No one replies to me much anymore tho. In one way I have a full life in real life, but my support network online is dwindling.

Blue_Bird · Aug 31, 2019, 07:27 PM

I thought most of the people who were active on here went over Snapchat

I tend to post in the bipolar forum when not on here since it's very active.

falcon09 · Aug 31, 2019, 07:29 PM

today's been a good day.

Bought dark souls remastered for my switch, watched football, about to have dinner. I have to pay rent monday and tuesday I have surgery. Gonna be a busy week

Aug 31, 2019, 07:41 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I'm sorry if yall dont like me anymore.

No one replies to me really anymore.

I've just been gone because of work. No need to miss me, im back

Aug 31, 2019, 07:42 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I thought most of the people who were active on here went over Snapchat

I tend to post in the bipolar forum when not on here since it's very active.

I think that's where 12pm posts a lot too last I heard. I could be wrong. I rarely see her anymore.

Aug 31, 2019, 07:43 PM

Yeah Roll Call use to be 10 pages of posts a day.

newtus · Aug 31, 2019, 07:49 PM

Most days recently snapchat has been dead. Every once in awhile someone will post. It used to be really active. Mostly now its just desoxyn posting to himself.

I dont have a lot of time to be on social media much anymore. Only when I'm off really. And even then I get busy now on my days off. Today has been the only day where I've had a lot of time to relax, in 2 weeks.

newtus · Aug 31, 2019, 07:50 PM

I'm hoping roll call is just going through a temporary dry spell.

childofchaos831 · Aug 31, 2019, 08:10 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I'm sorry if yall dont like me anymore.

No one replies to me really anymore.

I don't think anyone is ignoring you on purpose. I know for me, I'm slipping into depression again and just don't have much to say...

Aug 31, 2019, 08:34 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Yes that is what I mean. I kindve was joking, but at the same time that new show is kinda scary.

Ohh sarcasm goes straight over my head these days. lol

Aug 31, 2019, 08:35 PM

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Originally Posted by childofchaos831

I don't think anyone is ignoring you on purpose. I know for me, I'm slipping into depression again and just don't have much to say...

You're not alone.

Desoxyn · Aug 31, 2019, 11:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I don't mind the tiredness

My hypersomnia and fatigue kills me. If I go a day without a stimulant, it's not a pleasant tiredness. It's combined with extremely painful akathisia.

Desoxyn · Aug 31, 2019, 11:56 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Mostly now its just desoxyn posting to himself.

Lmao I'm an extremely rhetorical person.

Blue_Bird · Sep 01, 2019, 08:16 AM

Gonna take a walk later

Findingreason · Sep 01, 2019, 09:42 AM

Voices continue to sabotage me and talk back stuff about me. I am convinced the person that accused me of taking pictures of her in the ward is out to get me, and all the nurses are plotting against me. (I never did anything like that either, it raised my anxiety to sky high levels cause I would never try to be malicious...)

The doctor will poison me with new meds likely tomorrow. Or that’s what she thinks. I know I don’t have to take anything they attempt to give me. So I will refuse. They’re trying to plot against me I know it.

It’s so stressful. The voices say that they were the ones that made me smoke and said it will kill me which is exactly what they wanted to do to me. They’re so evil and I deserve it all.

newtus · Sep 01, 2019, 10:29 AM

Morning

I've got a headache. It could either be sleeping a lil too much or caffeine withdrawals. I sipped a bit of cold black coffee and instantly fell better. But it didnt even have time to reach my stomach when I did, so pretty sure it was a placebo effect. So maybe I could be stressed out too.

I dont wanna do anything. I'm exhausted all the time. I think I'm slightly depressed.

I know at work I am not exactly training anymore. But I dont have a finished office yet, and I dont have anything to do. I sit at my boss's desk and watch her answer emails all day. For 5 hours. So I'm bored at work.

newtus · Sep 01, 2019, 11:19 AM

My diet is getting worse.

I'm too exhausted to cook these days.

So I order out like drive thru. Or eat candy and chips all day.

I'm pretty sure that's partially what's causing all this exhaustion and not feeling well.

childofchaos831 · Sep 01, 2019, 11:44 AM

I'm the same newtus... I had been manic and now I'm crashing...

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