Roll Call 152

About to head to the psychiatrist. I'll complain about sleeping so much but my guess is there's nothing he can do about that.

Cant really seem to get ahold of anybody today. I had to call my doctor, my job counselor, and this other apt complex. Nobody answered.

I guess I'll just have to enjoy the rest of this week because I really have nothing to do and nobody to see. No appts.

Busy days usually make my week go faster and keep me active. But its ok.

Man it feels good to relax

Woke up and took vyvanse. Smoked a bit of sativa. Will take a weed gummy.

Idk what to do today

Probably I'll go into deep researching of American government conspiracies

I've been having the same problem. Going to see my pdoc on Wednesday.

Saw the pdoc, got my blood drawn, he said I should get used to the sleepiness with time.

Dang, I'm depressed again. Not suicidal. Just depressed. I want to stay under the weighted blankets with the lights off and just dissociate so I don't have to feel this way.

I'm in agony. I had to make small talk with the GM/CEO for about 15 minutes. He is a nice enough chap. I just really don't feel up to talking today.

A coworker told me I seemed tired today. I said Yep, and I have a bit of a headache (got my new glasses and my eyes aren't used to the prescription yet). But I really wanted to say (but didn't) I'm freaking depressed. Leave me alone.

Hopefully you do!

In all actuality, I probably don't want to be left alone. I just don't want to be bugged.

Amotivation: Want to DO THINGS but can't
Lazy: Don't want to DO THINGS but can

Edit: Wait nvm just lack of motivation yeah

@SlumberKitty-I think i relate. I find it almost impossible to say good morning, or unbearable to say fine thanks how are you? Its all the effort i can give to show up. Don't make me make useless small talk.

I used to never say good morning and when people asked how I was, I'd say "Good" even though I was depressed af and wouldn't ask someone how they are back.

@Desoxyn - sometimes i skip over how i am. Example: other person: hi how are you?
me: hi how are you?
Also helps helps to keep walking or clicking (I'm soooo busy)
That way i don't have to regurgitate nonsense.

Good morning, slept through the night Maintenance will be over soon to finish up the ceiling.

I've lost 3.6 pounds so far

They finished the ceiling! Plumber is coming in the afternoon to fix my tub then everything is done

Anyone here take abilfy? What's your experience with it

I do, it’s been good for me.

Thanks, that's good to know

Good morning everyone. How is everyone today? I'm still depressed but I think that may just be my new normal for a while. I don't really want to add any more meds but I'll see what the PDOC has to say when I see him on Monday. At least I'm not having any hallucinations. Really didn't want to come in to work today but I gave myself a kick in the pants and made myself come. It's so hard to do anything when I'm depressed. I just want to lay in bed all day. But that doesn't pay the bills. HUGS to anyone who wants one. Kit

I’ve been kinda depressed since yesterday myself, I’m not sure if it’s because I quit taking vitamin D a few months ago. I thought it would be ok since it’s summer. The alternate theory is bf isn’t supporting what I want to do...he still thinks I should end up in IT but the way the jobs are right now I can’t even apply if they want 3-5 years experience for entry level. I felt better after I painted yesterday maybe I should do it again.