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I went to the bar to have a few drinks. My waiter actually bought a beer for me, that's the 3rd time that has happened at this place. I truly don't understand why they treat me so nicely there. I stay there for 3-4 hours and tip 50% but that's no reason to buy me a drink. They need to save that money for college, seriously. I feel so bad for millennials and younger generations. They are getting screwed by stagnant wages over the past, I thought it was the past 10 years, but it's been the past 20 years.

What else I did today:
Went to the grocery store
Paid my T Mobile bill
Went to GNC to get protein powder
Went to the pharmacy
Then I got pizza

I did all of this to prepare for rush, the two week period when university students move out and then new students move in. I have to make sure houses and apartments are painted, all drywall finished. I got this.

Hey Falcon, I sent you a pm with my switch friend code

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My biggest fear is that I'll be full blown psychotic after I die. Isn't that where if you're dead, you've completely lost connection with reality? Or is the afterlife whatever we imagine, based on reality?

I'm also afraid of going psychotic BEFORE I die. Which will increase the possibility of being psychotic after I die.

I thought that said "sandwich code" lol

I could have died in other people's realities subjectively. And in my reality, I'm still alive.

I'm having a lot of trouble with deep reading lately. It's either the Trileptal, which @Blue_Bird said might go way, or the Seroquel, or both. I'm on 75mgs of Seroquel until Monday, then I'm on Monday, then I'm on 50mgs. Every Monday I go down 25 mgs. I might stay on 25 for another week, but I hope not. I really hope the fogginess goes away soon so I can enjoy my week off in September.

September I plan on going on a couple dates, Read The Active Powers of the Human Mind By Thomas Reid, beat Skyrim, and that's pretty much it lol.

I really hope I find a woman that's right for in September. I've received a lot of positive feedback, but I hope I can find a couple of quality dates next month.

I'm pretty picky regarding who I date though, not physically picky, but otherwise picky...

I'm gonna try to get around to starting your book. I have flipped through it a bit. I'm literally so bogged down with this new job and I'm trying to move too in a couple or so months. If I can. I'm worried that working, period, will lessen my time to my hobbies like reading and writing.

DT, you'd be surprised the kind of woman u will find who may be opposite of you. My fiance is opposite of me mostly, but we get along so very well. My exes were so much like me and I couldn't stand being in a room with them. Not just like me in personality, but interests too. I gave my fiance a chance and it turned out very well.

Cause we are the helpless, selfish, one of a kind
Millennium kids, that all wanna die
We are the worthless, cursed with too much time
We get into trouble and lose our minds
Something that I've heard a million times in my life

Generation Why

Gonna check my apartment out and make sure it's okay and then go out to eat, probably applebees.

No biggie about the book. Chapter 4 is very tough, but after that it get's easier. I wrote a bit about chapter 4 on the post's "comments" section of which you nicely shared. If you're puzzled, that comment might help.

I made a post on facebook about eggs.

Now I'm going to make eggs. Because I crave eggs.

It's probably the trileptal, it took a long time for me to adjust to the 1200 mg dose, like a long time, several months, I can read a lot now and have great concentration even with 600mg seroquel but I know everyone reacts to meds differently. Hope it clears up for you soon

I feel paranoid. I went to the dollar store to get a pint of ice cream and pick up my mail. This guy kept looking at me in the store.

You'd rather be alone, anonymously

Might go for a walk. Listen to podcast.

Thanks for this. It's nice to have hope. The lamictal also took months so I guess it's par for the course then. Thanks BB. I'm surprised how I'm not experiencing any other side effects except sedation and fogginess.

Good morning. Took a walk, cleaned the litter box, took the trash out, made coffee and breakfast, washed the dishes, took my meds, read for over an hour and wrote a new blog post

Cutting out junk food for 3 weeks. Today is day 2

Morning! Happy Sunday!
Nothing much going on today. Just cleaning and packing. I think my MIL is coming by later.
I’ve done nothing so far today I have the ambition of a rock.

Drew a cupcake

Had a great day

Awesome!

still very sleepy from the zyprexa, slept until the afternoon and I still don't feel fully awake.