Roll Call 156

It's so warm with one of my cats laying on me

Spaghetti and garlic knots for dinner! Yum.

I didnt really work on my book. I mean I kinda did. I wrote an outline. That's all. And researched local book publishers/regional publishers, with no luck.

I screwed up

I probably won't get anything for christmas but I also dont expect anything so I'm okay w that !!

I actually dont even like the holidays

My ideal Thanksgiving and christmas would be me by myself with Boby , doing my own thang

Where the fck is everyone?...

I'm here, just woke up from a nap

I’m here why?

It's just so dead today. I posted in roll call like 2 hours ago and no one said anything.

I don’t see a post from 2 hrs ago

Btw they opened up an amazon store like 45 min away. Well 30 min from my dad. Probably an hour away from me. I would've totally invited my mom to go with me, but my knee hurts so bad. I think from me taking the dogs out yesterday morning on a 2-roped leash, and one went behind me and they basically both started pulling and buckled my knees. I was embarrassed and nervous. Probably also cuz I took both of them together and they are strong af. Thor is 40 pounds and I swear xena has got to be 45 or 50 pounds. Its extremely hard to walk them together. I cant do that anymore. My knee is in a lot of pain.

Oops not roll call, I meant snap.

Once when I was younger it was raining and I was walking the dog in jelly shoes and I slipped and he kept pulling me down the road. My knees were totally skinned up.

omg. That's crazy. My knee is hurting worse by the hour. I took aspirin. I also know why, I THINK, i got bad headaches. I havent drank coffee in 2 days.

I made 3 pots of coffee 2 days ago and threw it all out. All 3 pots smelled like chemicals. Like acetone, which is nail polish remover. I googled the situation, and apparently it's common right now. Apparently folgers is not what it used to be anymore, like it was a couple of years ago.

So I'm throwing out the coffee. I smelled the water and different things like the sink. It seemed ok. And then I smelled the coffee grounds and it smelled like chemicals. I made a decaf cup of coffee from 2 other brands and it was just fine. So I dont think this is a hallucination.

Usually when I make coffee is had a robust earthy smell. But this container smelled like straight up chemicals.

Wow that’s scary....I use gevalia it’s kind of expensive but very nice but I usually limit my coffee to weekends due to anxiety

Yea it is scary. Apparently a whole bunch of people have been smelling chemicals in folgers coffee grounds and stuff for a few years now. Some people say it's because they been using Robusta beans, which is a cheaper type of coffee bean, from Vietnam. Etc plus other theories. Idk but what I do know is, I'm not buying folgers ever again.

I have 36 tabs open and my notes.

ADHD not good

Did u read what I sent you?

Everyone talks about coffee so much here. I think I'll have my coffee from lunch after my diet Pepsi. They make a nice coffee here. It's not like a dark roast, but it's good.

My tongue and throat hurt. I'm so sick of this place. I want to escape. But they'd find me and put me into a worse place.

I need to make my friend jealous so he'll get me away from here. But then I have to use someone which is a rotten thing to do. Maybe not, maybe I could just smile at someone as I'm losing weight. When my friend can see. It would be good if I could actually make a friend here. In my youth I once smiled at a barista and my then bf looked like he'd lose his head. He was a quintuple Scorpio 12th houser.

Oh well. I fell asleep in my chair waiting for the smoke break this morning and no one woke me! I woke up as they were coming back in. So it might be hard to make a friend here.

<3

Think lightly of it and focus on continuing the 7 months by adding another 7 months except go longer than that.

What does everyone think about getting a roll call tattoo? Like either your username or something that says roll call or whatever?

I'll read it right now.

Just I feel weird from sleeping so much. I have no anxiety and I like a little anxiety..

That sounds pretty awesome. When I'm 50, I can look at it and be like "This reminds me of those times.." but hopefully I won't be in the psych ward by then..

Sometimes I catch my jaw moving on it's own a bit like it did when I developed TD from Invega. I hope I don't develop it again with the abilify and thorazine. I know they have meds for it though now like austedo and ingrezza, which I've heard good things about.

Thanks Desoxyn