Roll Call 156

Oh no, don't do that! Maybe put them in the freezer if you don't want to use them now?

I'm sorry you had such a difficult night.

Wow, I hope you feel better today. I'm sure DNA testing is not a scam though. I've thought about doing it but haven't yet.

I hope she can find out soon what the stage is because it can really make a difference. Also, if there is a cancer hospital she can go to near her I would highly recommend it. When my Dad had cancer, he was diagnosed at a regular hospital. They said he had lung cancer. My dad never smoked or anything. They tried to do a biopsy two or three times but couldn't get a bite out of the tumor. They were going to take out his lung. My Mom was like we are going to City of Hope which is a cancer hospital here in So. Cal. They did their own biopsy and it was not lung cancer, it was Non-Hodgkins lymphoma which had formed in the lung. The other hospital would have taken out the lung and wouldn't have cured the cancer! Plus when they thought it was lung cancer, it was like really bad prognosis. When they found out it was Non-Hodgkins lymphoma stage 2 they were like, you're going to be fine. Chemo. Radiation. You'll be fine. And he was. And he is 9 years cancer free. But I think a cancer hospital is so important to "get it right" I mean, that's what they do all day every day so they have the knowledge and the resources. So if you Sister can go to a cancer hospital, I would think that would be really good. Best wishes to her and you. And your Mom. and lots of hugs too. Kit

I'm so sorry, SP. Your family will stay in my prayers.

Weighing in on the DNA testing thing. Okay so I am either a conspiracy theorist or I am paranoid, but I think that giving a company my DNA (or paying them to take it really) is like opening Pandora's box. I think of like WWII where the Nazi's were measuring people's skulls and matching their hair color to some predetermined system, and deciding who lived or died on that stuff. Imagine if they would have had DNA technology back then? What happens if/when something like that happens in the future. They would use that stuff against me!

There’s a really good chance she’s going to move back with our mom and dad and I would suspect she might even see the same oncologist as my mom just to make things easy. If it were my choice I’d go to an academic hospital that’s about 35 min from them but they seem to have found a decent place anyway. Right now she doesn’t even have insurance though so she’s going to sign up for Obamacare there....which is good timing because it will start in January so most of her bills will get paid. Thanks for the wishes and hugs .

My little sister (17) got put on fluoxetine (10mg) and ativan (14x 1mg).

I'm very conservative with this. It's her decision to take the fluoxetine because it makes it less likely that she'll be addicted to the Ativan. But I took fluoxetine and it made my panic attacks worse (Because they were psychedelic dissociative panic attacks based on serotonin). She has a bit of OCD so it could work idk. Before I took psychedelics, I was never anxious on fluoxetine.

Ativan should be taken only twice a week (Liberal) or once a week to every two weeks (Conservative) to avoid tolerance. If you take it once a day for 1-2 weeks, it becomes ineffective and tolerance is 100% so when you don't take it, the brain has as much anxiety that the benzo was taking away.

I took Ativan because my panic attacks were dissociative panic attacks that would last until I fall asleep (3+ hours of intense severe panic where NOTHING could calm me down - heart beating fast, shaking, zoned out) or take 2-3 benzos.

My sisters panic attacks only last for less than an hour or the time it would take until the ativan takes to kick in.

But another approach would be to just take ativan and build tolerance and take more until she's done with school and then withdraw from it (Because fluoxetine could make her focus less on her school work and do bad in school).

At least she's getting treatment. But I think treatment is very bad since psychedelics are illegal and they're known to help with depression and anxiety much better than SSRI's and benzos.

I worry about that too. Have long thought that it's a way to get data on people who just want their privacy.

Have had a weird sleep schedule lately. Falling asleep around 1 in the morning, sleeping till 8am, taking my morning meds then back to sleep till 11:30am.

Would like to get it back to normal

I hadn't been sleeping well at all. It was taking me a really long time to get to sleep, even with sleep medicine and xanax. I just couldn't sleep. Finally figured out it was the 10mg increase on the Vyvanse. I didn't have any more refills of the higher dose Vyvanse but I did of the lower dose, so I asked the pharmacist to just fill that. So she did. And now I can sleep much better. So I asked the Pdoc just to write it for the lower amount because I cannot sleep on the higher amount. So he did.

Theres a game on the switch coming out in december called Big Pharma where u make different pills and sell them mass market.

I think tweaky would like that.

My brain has developed more than when I was a teenager. I'm able to make better decisions =P

I feel sick to my stomach a bit and #2

Sorry tmi

I had a peppermint mocha from starbucks. I cant eat anything anymore honestly.

I feel like angels and entities are guiding me

I always have night euphoria before I go to sleep

SP , I'll post a pic of the polar bear pic I colored later tonight

Thanks!......

So I think I might've found my fault idk.

Huh? How so?

Here's the polar bear coloring page

What a cutie

Some small sketches

I'm so disorganized

I can't wait to go to sleep I just want to start a new day. Gonna ask my mom to see if I can work at the hotel on the weekends to make extra money.

I keep forgetting about things like this. Everything just slips my mind because I'm thinking about so many things.