Roll Call 157

I love making friends with cool people. I want to make friends with everyone.

Screw having an intimate relationship.

Yea it is. Even my boss asked me if it was weird for me. I got real nervous when she asked that but I said yea it was.

It was weird because we had to drive the person there and go into the inside of the psych ward. And I'm thinking like "wow I couldve easily been here last night or even the past few weeks ago".

Lil bub died and idk what to do anymore.

I wish it would rain, but it's ok, cuz I'm getting a haircut tomorrow.

I'm so happy and positive person =[ =p

I identify with non-depression

Going grocery shopping tomorrow

This was my first day back at my desk for the whole day in a month. Finally done all the work training. Now I can do almost everything!

But I had a bit of an off day as well I felt stressed and overworked being bombarded with work early in the morning. I was getting some messages in music poking through and my mind started drifting to the crazy.

Tomorrow is a better day, right.

I see my doctor again on Wednesday anyway.

I talked with my brother on the phone for an hour and we talked about many things.. Many things..

I helped his bf with his symptoms (He's an aspie with bipolar) and he has a problem with ringing in his ears, high blood pressure, dissociation symptoms.

I was meaning to look up the treatments for dissociation when I was talking to AD but I forgot. I have so many things in the back of my mind that I'm supposed to do but I have time for talking to people online, listening to music and half researching things that don't matter.

They said I'm like a doctor. I'm surprised how well I'm able to talk about things in analysing people's symptoms. I was helping my brothers bf with his antipsychotic medication. He was on 5mg Loxepine and can't tolerate low dose antipsychotics cuz he was born with no immune system and takes injections for that. I told him about psychedelics and antipsychotics and that he should only be on a low dose. He said it would be much better if he was my age and was on an antipsychotic injection but they just thought he was an aspie cuz he was so successful before age 30.

My little sister made my mom a cake for her birthday <3 I'm going skiing tomorrow and then going to a restaurant for her birthday and then we're going to do her radiation therapy.

I took an extra vyvanse and phenibut so I don't feel like a zombie (Just a little).

Has anyone heard from Erti lately?

A Study to Evaluate the Safety and Efficacy of BIIB104 in Participants With Cognitive Impairment Associated With Schizophrenia (CIAS) - Full Text View - ClinicalTrials.gov

Interesting new clinical trial for cognition in sz.......

Can't sleep

I might try to make an appointment with my pdoc and ask for a haldol increase.

This drug is like the ones I was talking about (GABA drugs). They do what benzodiazepines can do by being a positive allosteric modulator and mimics excessive physical exercise in the brain by binding to α-amino-3-hydroxy-5-methyl-4-isoxazolepropionic acid receptors in glutamate!

I wonder if normal people would be taking them tho

So I restarted lumosity....anything involving speed is sooooo slooow.......like I’ve lost 1/3 to 1/2 my scores it’s terrible. I mean I knew my processing speed had gotten worse but it’s far worse than I imagined. I’m not sure how to fix this. I mean the fish oil has helped my memory somewhat but I’m still terribly slow. Research time....

Going to the grocery store tomorrow instead, also have a dentist appointment tomorrow

i didnt sleep at all last night, very tired

I chatted with her yesterday on messenger. She's doing "idk".

I'm going skiing! I'm ecstatic! Ecstasy!

I was wondering where she went, I miss my partner in random well-timed sarcasm!

I’ve always wanted to do that, if I ever do I’ll take pics and post them here because that **** will be highly entertaining and I won’t be depriving my favorite people on the internet of the fun!

I'll take pics and post them here. I think we'll be above the clouds so we might see the mountains cuz it's a bit cloudy out. When it's a sunny day, it's an amazing view. I usually take pics and send them to the snapchat group.

Ecstasy pills are hilarious. Idk why we're on SSRI's.