Roll Call 158!

Yeah that's true. I was gonna delete these posts but now they are seen and will forever be on the interwebs for people to see 400 years into the future studying historic records.

So my friend wants me to contact people I was rude to and apologize. I used to believe in doing things like that, but my current perspective is to let it go because once people have washed their hands of you they really have no wish to hear from you again. But if he wants to contact people I guess he can.

The energy on me today is very heavy. Anxiety mixed with pessimism. I wish I could just be happy. I'm afraid two of my favorite bracelets are lost. I hope I'll find them!

They should be in my apartment. So paranoid the landlord has been in there, or worse, the janitor. The janitor is a psychopath.

If it was their fault, don't apologize.

Idk why people need to apologize anyways. Apologizing is mostly stupid.

I'm sorry I didn't mean that. Accept my apology. What?? You don't want to accept my apology? Why do you have the power??? I want the power!

50/50 and that's why me2 movement and calling out and all that stuff is stupid and good. Just don't complain and don't do things that wouldn't be redeemed with an apology and do things that would be redeemed with an apology (The sociopaths have that power)

In the end, cry the wolf.. and that is karma

But idk

Edit: God.. I have gone insane..

Edit: I said apologies are stupid cuz there's a book about it and it seems pretty cool. He might have been a sociopath idk.. I'm just writing this to exercise my mind and writing lazy in a way I think it's cuz of my damaged self from the soldiers and crypto investor saying i'll be a serial killer but i wont go into that anymore

No, apologies are ok if they're heartfelt, but in the right context. If it's after a period of years it depends on the situation. I was in terrible psychosis back then and I thought my landlord was trying to drive me crazy. I was completely at war with them (in my mind).

I don't think we should contact this person. Even apologizing for being a troublemaker just brings it back into the present when it should just stay buried in the past.

If you felt in a better mood, it would be their problem.. and if you want to build a relationship with them or for understanding to make it less hostile or akward, you'd apologize (In a good mood). Burying things in the past is good if you have confidence that you'll make the relationship better with a good m... Oh god

I was gonna write more but i need to sleep and have a new day.. I'm sorry I'm not really well. I hope you feel better soon <3

But no I've always been a really apologetic person cuz I really mean it.. "I'm sorry plz love me.." and I never lie.. only for drug..

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas, everyone!

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Psychopaths have no business being janitors.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Merry Christmas 😊
I read roll call every day because I like to see how you all are, and what everyone is doing. But I never say anything.
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Merry Christmas!

Christmas gift this morning...

I am finally under 200!!! The healthy eating and walking is paying off.

Christmas night of 2018 the spiritual Gods told me to order DMT so I did (':

It was a beautiful night. Everyone was drinking and sharing love.

Now I am in the compassion house for breast cancer with my mom so she isn't alone for Christmas. We're going for a walk today and then having Turkey dinner with everyone (Cancer patients and staff) <3

what is DMT?

Machine elves (also known as fractal elves, self-transforming elf machines or"Jenny") is a term coined by the late ethnobotanist, writer and philosopher Terence McKenna to describe the apparent entities that are often reported by individuals using tryptamine-based psychedelic drugs, especially DMT

"They offer things to you, saying "Look at this! Look at this!" and as your attention goes towards these objects you realise that what you're being shown is impossible. It's not simply intricate, beautiful and hard to manufacture, it's impossible to make these things. The nearest analogy would be the Fabergé eggs, but these things are like the toys that are scattered around the nursery inside a U.F.O., celestial toys, and the toys themselves appear to be somehow alive and can sing other objects into existence, so what's happening is this proliferation of elf gifts, which are moving around singing, and they are saying "Do what we are doing" and they are very insistent, and they say "Do it! Do it! Do it!" and you feel like a bubble inside your body beginning to move up toward your mouth, and when it comes out it isn't sound, it's vision. "

But I prefer not to put too much attention on it let's just ignore this

I hope everyone's having a nice day. I'm here if anyone is having a lonely Christmas <3

Merry Christmas everyone, hope you guys have a wonderful time with your love ones

Merry christmas everyone!

I got a lot of gifts, it's in a box that's too big and unwieldy to move by myself. There are worse problems to have