Roll Call 168 =)

Okay guys. My work day is done. I'll see you all tomorrow! I hope everyone has a good night's sleep tonight! HUGS Kit

Yes ikr total bucket list. Chicago is the shedd aquarium , they have these special white sided dolphins and belugas...also it’s a historic building so it’s got cool decorative features like seahorse lights....it’s pretty expensive though.

My lower legs look weirdly skinny. Idk what’s going on.

I wanna be a writer!

Atlanta is totally off the hook!!!

Go to the Stirling Castle and the Dingle Peninsula. if you can make it...

I think I have body dysmorphia. Probably due to psychosis idk. Like idk how to explain. I feel like my body parts are not normal looking. My arms and legs.

So, write...

I used to see a lot of folks with BDD. Is this new for you?

I know you’re responding to bpcyclist but I just want to say if you want to be a writer pour everything into that. You’ll probably need a day job, but it sounds like you translate well already.

Honestly I was kinda relieved because it made sense, that's why I wasnt able to pick up the med sunday.

Thanks for the tip SP <3

No. This has been going on for a few years. It’s not that I think I’m fat type of BDD, it’s like my body doesn’t look how it should sometimes. Like my arms feel longer than they should or how right now my lower legs look weirdly skinny. Like something is wrong with me physically/medically.

Fiancé says I probably have just gained too much weight the past few years and my body is a small frame and isn’t meant to be this size. I’m honestly obese. My healthy weight is about 120 maybe little under. I’m 5’2.

I have a different body image than I actually have, like still don’t feel too heavy but then I’ll see a pic or realize my actual pant size and like hmmm

I have that too but I don’t think my issue is that so much as feeling medically sick. I don’t have much fear of my weight but I should, but if I feel like there’s a tumor in my stomach, all hell breaks loose in my head. Everyday, I truly feel like I might be sick and it’s always something different. Idk how to stop the fear.

Obviously the pain in my back is real but I went to ER just for them to tell me it was nothing. I feel like a fool. And that’s when hypochondria becomes an issue, going to the ER over I think I’m dying or something.

Have you talked to your therapist about this? She should be able to talk you through it.

No I haven’t. I see her tomorrow but on video again...I wanna go in but I can’t due to my car issues.

Always goto your PCP first, urgent care second and ER if you’re literally dying....like in so much pain you can’t sit still. Besides your ER said you might have a kidney infection or a pulled muscle...that’s not nothing. Did you call your PCP to find out about the infection and whether the urine came back positive?

I feel great right now. Probably the Aleve and coffee and rest. But I have signed up for so much stuff and I haven’t participated in any of it. I’m talking more than the VR, talking about real life stuff too. Haven’t been writing or doing my blog but getting consistent hits on it.

What’s wrong with me? I ask because if I feel I’m slacking on things I feel I should be doing I feel lazy and unworthy.

What’s wrong with your car? If it’s the tags check our stuff has been extended till October due to covid.

No I didn’t

It has been yes and that’s what it is

Everybody slacks especially if there is no punishment for not slacking.....

Given that the ER couldn’t rule out a kidney infection you might want to keep taking the antibiotics, that’s why I wanted you to call your PCP......it’s not something you can just start and stop, you need to either be on it or not taking it at all.