Roll Call 168 =)

Morning

Feel good right now. But got business to take care of. Sucks.

Oh man. I’m waiting for the bus to go home for the grocery store. I was waiting in line and someone suggested to me to go to the self checkout since I didn’t have a ton of stuff. So I went reluctantly and probably made a fool of myself getting all flustered trying to do it with my anxiety, not knowing how exactly to do it, and trying to keep my mask falling off (which is why I need a new one) anyway, I did it.

Good job! Even tho u didn’t want to do it, it’s a victory!

Thanks @newtus !

How are you doing? Did you sleep ok?

How are you doing, did you sleep ok?

I’m doing good, thanks for asking. I slept pretty good. how are you?

I'm ok. Kind of jittery. I don't know why. The caffeine in the coffee is microscopic.

I've been asking them to charge my vape since last Thursday, and it never happened. Hopefully they are charging it now, I completely drained the battery.

Anyway, I'm glad you slept well! And that you made it out for groceries!!!

Grad school can definitely be overly stressful....I always wonder why I didn’t have my psychosis then....I was barely eating due to time and financial constraints back then, I weighed 125 pounds at 5’8”. Not healthy. I didn’t have time for friends outside of work or recreation. All it got me was my psychosis ten years later which was initially attributed to work stress.

I always wonder what would have happened to my mental health had I taken another path.

Love isn’t fake, it comes from within and doesn’t have to be part of “reality”. Reality might be fake, thus things like the matrix where it can be hard to tell, but being fake doesn’t make it invalid. It would be like playing a video game...you can still achieve an inner joy by playing giving it validity.

Hope th cloud has gone away.

Yeah, school has never been kind to me. I initially got psychotic in high school (age 16). And it was because of school-related stress then. I'm just glad I got my bachelor's, haha. I do have a double-major. That's enough for me. I don't need the MA.

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. Hope you feel better today.

Why did you originally want the masters? Was it an issue finding work?

One of my cousins works as a translator for the government...technically he’s considered a spy of some sort, but the fact that we all know that doesn’t make him a very good one, lol. Anyway have you ever looked into that type of translation? I have no idea how he found the job, but you need to be able to get security clearance.

I mean you ain’t supposed to be telling lmao

I forgot Apple is having their keynote in VR.

Ate some cereal. Don’t worry, it was almond milk!

I initially wanted the master's just because I had no direction after graduating from college. I taught English abroad in Argentina after graduating from college. Then I (stupidly) joined the master's program in addition to teaching English as a foreign language. So I was doing the master's program on top of teaching 20+ hours a week. Big mistake, haha. Now, though, my translation skills are good enough to just freelance on my own though. And I don't have to limit myself to translation, either. I want to write books. I want to make music. Those are (arguably) hobbies. But I also tutor Spanish, ESL, and philosophy. And so I'm looking to do something along those lines. I have tutoring gigs and I'm just looking for translation work. Eventually I might sit for the ATA (American Translators Association) certification exam. It costs a lot though to even sit for it. And once I have a credential for translation, though, I will get more work. That's basically a given.

He’s the one that shouldn’t be telling, but as I understand it he just translates stuff so it’s not like he leaves the country....Besides I didn’t hear this first hand...it could have been a misunderstanding?

Ok sounds like you’ve got a plan, that’s half the battle anyway.

Have you tried oat milk? It’s suppose to be stellar....I keep forgetting though because I haven’t been going to the store.

Yeet yeet lil parakeet

No I haven’t! Hm.

I’m lying in bed yet again feeling lethargic. Oh! I forgot to take my second pill of vraylar.

My sister is ordering me that pretty mask I picked out