Roll Call 168 =)

Ever had a stone?

No I haven’t. I can’t tell if this is kidney pain or back pain. I know already that I have lower back problems. Right now my kidney or whatever it is, doesn’t hurt, but my lower right side of my back hurts well I guess it kind of does hurt slightly. But a dull ache not sharp pain.

I've been having really bad anxiety the past 2 days, I don't know why

Oh, okay, def not a kidney stone. You'd be on the floor or in the ED.

Hope you feel better soon!!

I forget, do you have any prn's for this?

Yeah I have klonopin but don't want to take any right now cause I took one last night and I try to avoid taking it as much as possible

Does thorazine help at all for anxiety BB I know at lower doses it's sometimes used for that

clozaril isn't gonna be ready today, maybe tomorrow

I think so, my anxiety had been pretty good for the most part up until yesterday

Almost home...waiting for Chinese food

At night it kind of knocks me out into oblivion and that's nice honestly

Oh man, I've been craving Chinese food so badly lately! Enjoy

They told bf he can’t drive until 3pm tomorrow.....he was supposed to take his mom to an eye appointment tomorrow morning an hour away and asked me to drive....I was like no way....

Sorry I’m not suddenly a long distance driver....we’re probably not going to the party tomorrow either because it’s also an hour away. Which is good news for my homework....

60 day water fast or no

One sec I'll research

My set and setting has changed to horror

Edit: Putting an alpraz under tongue. Maybe I'll take an olanzepine

That seems deadly.

This is my problem.. I make my goals too big.

My mom is making food - Smells nice, I'll eat.

But she forgot to teach me again! How will I be independent idk...

Maybe you should just try one at a time.

Makes sense..

Although I don't think I make sense. None of this makes sense to me.

Welp, got tired and lay down and then--presto! Psychotic. Like, really, really psychotic. Out of nowhere. Had been so good for a few weeks. Weird. Dunno. My crazy brain again... Probably that old antidepressant I took yesterday that is so freaking powerful. A good reminder why I cannot take it, no matter how depressed I get.

Took an extra Trilafon, which I am sposed to do if this happens. So, I was a good patient and did that. Feeling calmer right now. My higher power is always there for me in these times, in my hardest hours. I can always count on Him to help me. So grateful for Him.

Glad you're feeling better And glad you have your higher power to rely on, I feel like that's very important

Feeling slightly better with the benzo. I already took the olanzepine but I think dulling my dissociation or .. Idk what it is but I would have taken an olanzepine afterwards anyways.

I'm intuitive. I know by feeling that I know..

Edit: My mom made stir fry. Eating will help too.

So this is insane.

In one of the VR programs they have worlds in there. Certain areas or certain worlds are different. Like there Virtual Reality Church, there’s Open Mic Night, Round Table Talk world, etc like I’m highly highly impressed.

There’s even some philosophy rooms to chat and talk about hypothetical ideas and theories ... and that’s just 1 world in ONE program!

Sorry this happened....glad the trilafon and your higher power helped.....

I’m so overwhelmed by what I can do. And each program has its own events, mainly the social VR programs. Idk what to do first man. I just don’t.