Roll Call 169!!

I just want it to be Monday already.

This is ridiculous. So fckn ridiculous. Beard hair everywhere, dirty clothes in the bedroom, bathroom, socks downstairs. Trash piled on his desk. Like???

This the shyt that’s annoying af.

Sounds like the 3 kids and a 45 year old man child that lives with me.

I’m surprised its not required at his work.....

How does that work?

Kinda jealous of all the brownies but at least my meal came with cheesecake.....

you can have my brownies ad I'll take you cheese cake.

I only have half a slice left, still want to trade?

YES yum yum

Not wearing a mask in order to make a political statement is not supported by the science and dangerous. And I am mostly very conservative.

I just dj’d at a virtual club that looked like LA. Lmao.

I want to look up the VR but I want to be relaxed first. Maybe an olanzepine and weed? Oh God! The antidotes.. Everywhere is a cure that doesn't fix my prollems..

But no ill do something about it

I am watching adorable golden rtriever puppy videos and it makes me very happy!!! You should try it if you are not feeling happy. It will probably help you feel happier.

The high CBD low THC flower is definitely relaxing. I don't want to smoke too much though or I'll be psychotic.

Are there real people dancing though?

the last time I got high off of edibles I ended up freaking out... unable to walk and ate something to try to get rid of the high before getting blood work done and threw it up just in time to still be able to get my blood work done. I was freaking out.

I'm gonna take alprazolam because my mom is having sex with her bf. It reminds me of when I was a kid and I was eating cereal my parents said "We're gonna go upstairs and sleep" and I could hear them having sex.

I feel like there's entities causing things like this to happen on purpose and there's an audience watching to see if I react to it.

I'm solipsistic. They just went into the room and what am I supposed to be doing? Looking up VR headsets, completely in pain in trying to relax - It's like I'm afraid of something bad happening.. Like when I asked my mom to open the door because I thought she called the police on her bf - I was impolite to do that or something?

What am I doing wrong here? I don't think I should put this in a trigger because it's not considered triggering. It's supposed to be funny to most people but I'm not really laughing - Just at how ridiculous my reality is.

It's literally like I'm being tortured or traumatized against my will

I'm not laughing because obviously you're in emotional and psychological pain. Continue posting if not hit me up on facebook. I'll do my best to be there for you like you have with me. <3

I'm so smart because I know how to articulate everything in my head but I don't know how to explain how everything relates to certain things.

But I'm ok. I'll just ignore this and smoke a bit more weed and try to do something productive.

I wish I was happy and this would be a lot easier but I'm tapering phenibut. It seems that any time I try to taper a drug, something stupid happens.

But I'm ok now. They're just talking. I'm not really in the right mind to judge, exist properly because I think reality in general (Or at least my reality - Especially my bad trip) is a form of trauma.

"Every time I start to feel better, some stupid ******** happens" is what I was saying when I had that meltdown on the front lawn.

And my mom is ****ing weird. My dad tells me things about her that I don't realize and all of the ****ing politics of the world ties into it and the ****ing arguing, social media, virus, people dying, the conspiracy people I talked to, what ever is real, the future.

My mind is absolutely trying to hold on and I can't believe I am still keeping it to together. I just ****ing had enough.

It's seems like everything is just one big hallucination - Which would definitely help you guys if you're feeling solipsistic because if I think this way and you're all real, I'm just an example that confirms that you're stable.

Yes there are! But their avatars. It’s a real club. There’s multiple night clubs on Vr.

I feel for you dude. It's crazy how our minds perceives things with mental illness.

I feel happier saying that at least.

Feeling better..