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falcon09 · Jul 04, 2020, 02:38 PM

My doc said he's seen people respond to clozapine at as low of a dose as 200mg. Hopefully I'm one of those

Desoxyn · Jul 04, 2020, 02:41 PM

Now I know what my dad meant by "Always go to the right"

Cuz the left meant you were gassed.

cogladaid · Jul 04, 2020, 02:57 PM

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Both my parents were the first to college in their families. My dad was dirt-poor oil field trash from West Texas. But he was smart and put himself through college and UT med school. Both he and my mom were voracious readers and we all read a ton. And although I ultimately I was lucky to go to some fantastic schools because of them, dad taught me early that the same books people at Yale read are available in almost any library. Anyone can be educated, all you have to do is read. You don't have to go to Stanford. By far, the two most talented surgeons I ever had the honor of operating with were graduates of the University of Mississipi and the Univerity of Tennessee. They were in their own leagues compared to anyone at Harvard or Vanderbilt. So...

Where I went to undergrad, we were required to take music and art history and philosophy and Greek and English lit, no matter if you were an engineer or what. Now, most of the other Ivies have that same requirement. I think it is a good idea, so folks can be introduced to a broad piece of our cultural heritge.

On my dads side his parents worked at a beer factory for most of their working years. My dad was in the navy. On my moms side her father came from Slovakia and owned and worked a well drilling business and a restaurant. Neither side were educated. Hard workers. My mom never got a chance to get an education before become disabled.

Desoxyn · Jul 04, 2020, 03:09 PM

"At such a moment it is not the physical pain which hurts the most; it is the mental agony caused by the injustice, the unreasonableness of it all".

Desoxyn · Jul 04, 2020, 03:11 PM

I read for an hour. Gonna take a break and listen to music.

I'm extremely confused.

Job 30 26 · Jul 04, 2020, 03:32 PM

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I have next to zero physical skills and don’t take well to orders so it was never for me....

I signed up, went to do the tests, then the guy tore it up and wanted me to sign with him, so I went back to the recruiter and the marines their tried to intimidate me to go full time instead of reserves, then ordered me to do push-ups. He pinned me to a wall, and then put his arm to the right of me head, blocking me from the door, and continued to tell me to do full time. I ducked his arm and left. no regerts.

Job 30 26 · Jul 04, 2020, 03:34 PM

Bought a new phone, some fiber supplements, phone stuff to make this phone last forever, screen protector and stuff, and a book. Now reading.

Man these threads have a thrusting forward will of their own!

cogladaid · Jul 04, 2020, 03:35 PM

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I signed up, went to do the tests, then the guy tore it up and wanted me to sign with him, so I went back to the recruiter and the marines their tried to intimidate me to go full time instead of reserves, then ordered me to do push-ups. He pinned me to a wall, and then put his arm to the right of me head, blocking me from the door, and continued to tell me to do full time. I ducked his arm and left. no regerts.

Jesus. It’s stuff like that that made me glad I didn’t go into it.

bpcyclist · Jul 04, 2020, 04:00 PM

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I'm gonna read that book today "Man's search for meaning".

What's your thoughts on it @ The people who were recommending/reading it?

transcendent

Blue_Bird · Jul 04, 2020, 04:18 PM

Made some decaf coffee. Listening to upbeat songs now. Going to finish my book tonight. Then play Animal Crossing and watch stuff on Netflix. Felt panic creeping up but I'm doing all I can to keep it from starting and it seems to be working so far

Blue_Bird · Jul 04, 2020, 04:25 PM

I love researching the health benefits of foods. Mental and physical benefits.

newtus · Jul 04, 2020, 04:33 PM

Yea my dad signed up into the Air Force to be a fighter pilot. He got dismissed because of his eyesight. He’s blind in one eye. But it was how they did. They told him to come into the office and sign some papers. He started to read them and they said “don’t read it just sign it” and after he did, they told him he was dismissed for good.

falcon09 · Jul 04, 2020, 04:44 PM

So tired.... not even 5pm

Job 30 26 · Jul 04, 2020, 04:59 PM

desoxyn, The book basically means that hell is what you make of it, psychologically speaking. It's a great example of a person and an extreme example of a horrendous human tragedy, and how one can see through the static to still find meaning to get one through the day, or I think he was in Auschwitz from 44-45. So with Viktor's year-long tragedy, Viktor came to the conclusion, "Those who have a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'.”

newtus · Jul 04, 2020, 05:14 PM

Been reading a lot of poetry lately. Bought 2 books on poetry.

Desoxyn · Jul 04, 2020, 06:18 PM

I met two people on discord that have schizophrenia and autism.

They were posting links to podcasts and stuff about reality and I was like hold on wait a minute.., - "Do you guys find that you're very interested in things that trigger your psychosis?" and one was like;

"Yes. Hell yes"..

newtus · Jul 04, 2020, 06:20 PM

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I met two people on discord that have schizophrenia and autism.

They were posting links to podcasts and stuff about reality and I was like hold on wait a minute.., - "Do you guys find that you're very interested in things that trigger your psychosis?" and one was like;

"Yes. Hell yes"..

Omg I am too

bpcyclist · Jul 04, 2020, 06:23 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Made some decaf coffee. Listening to upbeat songs now. Going to finish my book tonight. Then play Animal Crossing and watch stuff on Netflix. Felt panic creeping up but I'm doing all I can to keep it from starting and it seems to be working so far

What helps stave off the panic, Blue?

Desoxyn · Jul 04, 2020, 06:24 PM

I'm quite interested in pharmacognosy @ SP... But I'm not a "plant lover"?

I think it would be interesting to look into though. I would hate to be a slave working for Big Pharma. Cuz Big Pharma is more evil than anyone realizes. It's so evil that it's unbelievable to be that evil.

Desoxyn · Jul 04, 2020, 06:30 PM

I do like plants though I just don't really know much about them apart from what I know from biology class in high school.

Blue_Bird · Jul 04, 2020, 06:35 PM

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What helps stave off the panic, Blue?

Meditation, music with my headphones on, reading, sometimes taking walks helps too

WastingAsparagus · Jul 04, 2020, 06:39 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I'm gonna read that book today "Man's search for meaning".

What's your thoughts on it @ The people who were recommending/reading it?

My thoughts on it are:

It grasps at the truths of the meaning of human suffering and its relationship to meaning.

It details a psychiatrist's journey through concentration camps and Nazi Germany to finding what makes life worth living.

It's not a linear path, and I don't think the book was intended to be one. Rather, it shows by way of example and also through other means, why life matters.

He discusses the concept of logotherapy -- which is essentially "meaning"-therapy.

I thought it was a worthwhile read for those reasons. It's also fairly short as far as impactful books go.

Hopefully that will help you determine whether you want to read it or not.

Desoxyn · Jul 04, 2020, 06:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Meditation, music with my headphones on, reading, sometimes taking walks helps too

Taking walks definitely helps for me. I felt derealization 2 hours ago and thought of going for a walk but it's so cold outside (50F).

Need diazepam taper again.. (I know I hate talking about this stuff but it's just something that I have to deal with - Not my fault but I claim full responsible)....

Desoxyn · Jul 04, 2020, 06:42 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

My thoughts on it are:

It grasps at the truths of the meaning of human suffering and its relationship to meaning.

It details a psychiatrist's journey through concentration camps and Nazi Germany to finding what makes life worth living.

It's not a linear path, and I don't think the book was intended to be one. Rather, it shows by way of example and also through other means, why life matters.

He discusses the concept of logotherapy -- which is essentially "meaning"-therapy.

I thought it was a worthwhile read for those reasons. It's also fairly short as far as impactful books go.

Hopefully that will help you determine whether you want to read it or not.

I read for an hour but got distracted =[

I could say "I'll read an hour a day" - Maybe that could work.. just so many things... I'll write more about the exhaustion that I'm dealing with later in detail.

Erti · Jul 04, 2020, 06:43 PM

Why the **** do I care what people who don't give a **** about me think about me? I'm sick of biting my ****ing tongue with most people. I'm worthless I guess.

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