Roll Call 172

@Desoxyn Happy Birthday! 🎊🎈🎂

Nice! What are you making?

Nothing at the moment, just practicing

Yeah, I get that. Got any benzos? Deep breathing?

Going on 54 hrs w one hour sleep. Not tired

So tired barely slept

My dream was of hot air balloons that were flying over the sky. I was witnessing things and wasn't really apart of the dreams - Just watching clips of nonsense. I hid stimulant powder on pancakes and put them in the fridge so my mom wouldn't notice.

4 men dressed up in drag along with hundreds of women who infiltrated the house. These men in drags were beside my pancakes and started shooting missals at an airliner plane which went down - But they kept shooting missals so it was clear that it didn't look like aliens shot the plane down like they wanted to think. The cops showed up to the house.

Eventually the men in drags were being hanged in the middle east and the last guy I saw got a golden plate put on his head for electrocution and he pretended he had a seizure before he was electrocuted.

As I was watching these people being executed in my dream, I thought, "Would I rather be tortured? - I want to be tortured in a form of masochism to get back at them".

Didn't realize it was your birthday Desoxyn, happy birthday!!!

Same here, was up most of the night cause I was afraid if I slept I wouldn't wake up on time for the inspection

That's really bad, have you talked to your doctor about it, what did they say?

I woke up at 9am for the first time without having to go to work. I went to bed at 11pm.

It's great waking up early and having a good sleep.

You said you were tolerant to sleeping pills?

Once it get to this point, a flunitrazepam is useful.

Going on another hike with the community outreach worker. I'm not sure what I'm going to talk about - I have brain fog. Although I said that last time and ended up talking non stop for the whole hike.

I just feel slightly confused right now.

Had a good hike. Talked to the stranger friends at the coffee connections.

Gonna organize thingz and do something before the stim wears off

I didn't have a panic attack last night =]

The grim reaper is staring at me. I think someone close to me is going to die or myself.

My therapist called, we made an appointment for tomorrow.

Inspection went well today.

My sister is getting me some Chinese food this weekend. I’m getting sweet and sour chicken, an egg roll, and pork fried rice. Can’t wait!!

Only had 2 cups of coffee today. Now drinking some herbal tea. I’m exhausted from being up half the night. Can’t wait to sleep.

Everything is overwhelming. My anxiety is getting the best of me. I'm scared... Of everything right now. I don't know what's real and what's in my head.

So sorry, 12!!!

I survived being tortured. Trust me, u don't want that.

Yes, I told em. On Depakote again but takes a couple days. Luckily, not really psychotic yet.

Thanks, Blue!!!!

Yeah, I am. I will check it out.

Happy bday desox!

I have a terrible headache. For 3-4 days now. I’m pretty sure it’s linked to stress and not sleeping much.

No, no, noooo!!! That is ur sick dopamine system, Erti. I thought God was trying to kill me 6 days ago. I was psychotic. So r u.

Does ur doc know u still have this much psychosis?

Pls. call ur pdoc, Erti!!!!