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12AM · Aug 21, 2020, 05:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

I moved in before they had furniture... 4 adults... my friend, his girlfriend, his cousin, and me. Then there's the 3 kids, 2 pitbulls, 3 bedroom townhouse. I checked out with the cleaning. It was me and my friends girlfriend cleaning the house. His girlfriend has been in and out of jobs pretty much. Her mental illness got the best of her like mine. All four of the adults have some sort of severe mental illness. 3 off us with PTSD and me with schizophrenia, my friend bipolar, his girlfriend with BPD and some sort of dissociative disorder that borders on the DID spectrum and my friends cousin has a mind of a teenager because of a head injury. So yeah

Not a good decision that they chosed to have kids with that kind of severe mental illnesses. So yeah it wasn’t your fault, don’t blame yourself

Desoxyn · Aug 21, 2020, 06:43 PM

Stuck on what to do with my life

bpcyclist · Aug 21, 2020, 06:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

my point is I cannot forgive myself

We both must work on this.

Blue_Bird · Aug 21, 2020, 06:54 PM

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I screwed up and binged and purged again. I have to stop. I stopped for a year so I should be able to stop again but it's hard. Anyway, probably a good idea to start going to that eating disorder support group my therapist mentioned since my bulimia has resurfaced

bpcyclist · Aug 21, 2020, 06:57 PM

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Originally Posted by 12AM

I hope I won’t be up for more than 24 hours again today.. Kinda nervous about it.

Hugs, 12!!

bpcyclist · Aug 21, 2020, 06:59 PM

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Originally Posted by childofchaos831

Hi y'all

I wasn't doing too good, made a bad choice, and after 6 days, am feeling better, but now I'm IP at a psych facility til they see fit to release me, which will probably be after the weekend at least.

Hugs, guys!!

bpcyclist · Aug 21, 2020, 07:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Erti

I find myself parenting in a way with my friends kids... I feel brokenhearted because the kids got taken away. Things are said about me and my friend that wasn't true because there's no way I'd threaten the kids. I loved them as my own... I feel responsible in a way because the whole thing about the house being dirty. The youngest was crying when they took her. She was like "don't let them take me away"... I care for those kids. I care so much for them. I love those kids and the hurt from the separation and not being able to see the kids for over a month is hard.

I am so sorry, Erti. Have not spoken to my son in 8 yrs. Hugs.

bpcyclist · Aug 21, 2020, 07:03 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Stuck on what to do with my life

Be free and joyous.

bpcyclist · Aug 21, 2020, 07:04 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Possible trigger:

I screwed up and binged and purged again. I have to stop. I stopped for a year so I should be able to stop again but it's hard. Anyway, probably a good idea to start going to that eating disorder support group my therapist mentioned since my bulimia has resurfaced

Hugs, Blue!!

Desoxyn · Aug 21, 2020, 07:16 PM

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Be free and joyous.

I can't lol I feel depressed. Work sucks. I need to find a way to make enough money online to be comfortable and be anywhere in the world. I want to make a business of some sort..

Hmm.. That gives me an idea that I should be solving this problem.

I need to be constantly learning, take opportunities and keep in mind that I'll be using everything I absorb in the future - To wherever the path goes..

childofchaos831 · Aug 21, 2020, 07:44 PM

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Hugs, guys!!

Thanks so much

newtus · Aug 21, 2020, 09:05 PM

Yes!!! The LWA program got accepted!!! That should help a lot!

bpcyclist · Aug 21, 2020, 11:07 PM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I can't lol I feel depressed. Work sucks. I need to find a way to make enough money online to be comfortable and be anywhere in the world. I want to make a business of some sort..

Hmm.. That gives me an idea that I should be solving this problem.

I need to be constantly learning, take opportunities and keep in mind that I'll be using everything I absorb in the future - To wherever the path goes..

You are very bright. You shall figure it out. Why not use the ket if depressed?

WastingAsparagus · Aug 21, 2020, 11:49 PM

I exercised today and listened to Drake while doing that. For some reason I'm obsessed with Drake right now. Not sure why, but hey, I'll go with it.

bpcyclist · Aug 22, 2020, 12:57 AM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I exercised today and listened to Drake while doing that. For some reason I'm obsessed with Drake right now. Not sure why, but hey, I'll go with it.

Drake is good!!

Fave type of cat?

newtus · Aug 22, 2020, 02:38 AM

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Drake is good!!

Fave type of cat?

Black ones

newtus · Aug 22, 2020, 10:09 AM

I need groceries

12AM · Aug 22, 2020, 10:10 AM

Been dissociating today. Feeling confused. Means I have to do yoga more. Usually it helps. Bought aromatherapy oil, a candle, and dried flowers to light up my mood. The oil looks something like this:

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Erti · Aug 22, 2020, 10:36 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I need groceries

Where I live there's a lot of food banks we can go to. You being where you are idk. Here they tend to have somewhat good food and sometimes even stuff that is usually expensive. Don't hesitate if you need food you need food.

WastingAsparagus · Aug 22, 2020, 11:21 AM

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Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Drake is good!!

Fave type of cat?

Not sure I know too many types of cats but yeah, black ones are cool. Same with white haha. One of my friends had a kitten in college and I remember it was so fun to play with him (the cat).

bpcyclist · Aug 22, 2020, 11:29 AM

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Originally Posted by 12AM

Been dissociating today. Feeling confused. Means I have to do yoga more. Usually it helps. Bought aromatherapy oil, a candle, and dried flowers to light up my mood. The oil looks something like this:

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Yoga rocks. Favorite position or move?