Roll Call 173

I feel pretty good this morning. Going to do some things like talk to one of my good friends today. So that's good.

I don’t feel good physically. I may not be eating enough due to the metformin...

I’m Max on Snapchat

He’s wondering you live

Etsy has a ridiculous shipping price. Was about to order a mug and candles there for my friend’s birthday, the shipping costs like the gifts themselves. So bought from Amazon instead.

He knows where I live, talked about it on Snapchat

Oooh ok. Soz

Dang it, my bank account is overdrafted!

Just took a shower. Now waiting for my hair to dry. Going to go grocery shopping today.

It depends on the shop...some ship free, others are ridiculous.....

For some reason I’m all into Xbox again. Into these free MMORPGs. I added some people to my friends list when I signed up to be an Xbox ambassador the other day. While I did a year ago but never participated til now.

But I wish I knew people irl who gamed n stuff. I go through my two phases of gaming and writing. It’s been that way for like a year now. Or 10 months, one.

I like how u can get a house in these games and live in a complete fantasy world. It’s not the game so much but the social aspects I like. Sooooo much stuff to do. Like buy horses, run a farm, fish, buy houses, buy even unicorns and ride in a open world setting.

I don’t feel good

Edit/// I think it’s partially the metformin, but because I barely been eating. It doesn’t make me hungry much. I don’t think about food like I used to. I used to think about my next snack...I don’t anymore. But I had coffee on an empty stomach and that’s never good for me. Plus it was black coffee which makes me nauseous and jittery. For some reason I have to drink it with cream now. It was the smallest cup option on the Keurig too.

Aha!!!!!

Something isnt right with my body

I feel like it has to do with my spine

My right side feels cold. Not to the touch, but inside. On my stomach, side and back on the right side.

I need to take more breaks from the pc/phone but it’s hard.

And my weight is so detrimental to me.

Ah I see. Yeah was thinking it was kinda weird because when I bought something there before this the shipping cost was normal.

I find that it’s better to have an eating schedule instead of eating when hungry.

Just saw an ll bean sweater I loved...ombré blues....so pretty cost $119......omg! No way!

Got my grocery shopping done. Cashier was really nice. So was the bus driver on the way back.

I took my klonopin before going because I always get anxious shopping. It went well. I found everything I was looking for.

Front door boarding on the bus comes back starting tomorrow. For the past several months due to covid bus rides were free and you would board from the back of the bus. But now that they have protective shields for the drivers, front door boarding and paying using the fare box can resume.

I am annoyed with a friend. I told him I was having a mental health crisis over the weekend and that's why I couldn't talk to him on facetime. I definitely don't appreciate that he didn't even ask me how I was doing after I told him that. Anyway, may not talk to this friend anymore.

Good job, Blue.

Neurotypicals do not Get It.

Yes I should know this by now. Once I went off my meds due to some "advice" that another friend gave me one time. Ugh. That lost me about 2 years of my life wasted in depression. Oh well. It's over now. Anyway, yeah, I've learned not to listen to people like that. Only people I really trust mental-health wise are people on PC, my doctors, and sometimes my parents. Sometimes friends are helpful. I just wish that it wasn't so hard to give good advice or real support on mental health stuff. It's super frustrating. Well, that's why I need therapy, I suppose.

Maybe as a special treat to yourself when autumn comes and for all your hard work with school and your job?