Roll Call 182

I'm going to start taking better care of myself. Getting on a good sleep schedule, getting some exercise, getting fresh air, eating a bit healthier, better hygiene, and self care

Well she’s passed away. It was a woman in my family tree from the 1920s. I found her picture on ancestry website

Got my covid shot

Y’all I could be hypomanic. Just from leaving the house. Either that or my anxiety is bigly

Honestly, cooking shows calm me down. They're just relaxing.

Awww, I got no more cooking shows to watch right now.

I wish I could just escape for a while.

I told my psychologist I would try not to do online quizzes but I obsess and can't help myself.

I've become dead. I wish I could be euphorically manic.

Discovery+!

It’s the best 7 dollars you’ll ever spend a month!

I'd consider it, but it's not available in Canada yet.

You and me both.

I feel stable mood wise, but now full of OCD anxiety.

Ohhh fck That sucks

I've been so nauseous the past few days. Either from withdrawing from thorazine and/or starting the abilify shot

Sipping micromushdose tea to see if it will help with my low mood/energy cuz the evening Dexedrine didn't help.

Edit: I suppose that's not what Dexedrine is for - But focus is useless without desire/drive to do things, mood and energy.

Does anyone have any tips for dealing with nausea caused by meds?

Feeling sleep.. Gonna lie down. The mush didn't help and made me more fatigued - But it is peaceful.

I just want to go back to when I was happy.

I talked to some trippers.. I mentioned that I want to go back to when I was happy - One said "You can".. One is living in Germany but from El Salvador. I said that I was depressed at age 16 but those 3 weeks of being in Central America was one of the happiest times of my life..

I feel like it's all my environment man.. Eventually I'll move away and have a better life.

I was sitting by the fire yesterday and my mom was talking with that smart old man that reads a lot - And they were talking about how they both like travelling, family and food.

But I should work towards that dream of travelling the world. The reason my parents divorced is cuz my dad didn't want to move to Spain.

My dad travels everywhere now alone and reminds me of John Mcafee.

I thought of the words "Attention span" and thought, isn't this my problem in a way? I want to exSPANd my attention..

"How can I increase my attention and focus?
Train your brain. Playing certain types of games can help you get better at concentrating. ...
Get your game on. Brain games may not be the only type of game that can help improve concentration. ...
Improve sleep. ...
Make time for exercise. ...
Spend time in nature. ...
Give meditation a try. ...
Take a break. ...
Listen to music."

going to Arkansas tomorrow...

Still have car ride phobia?

I'm going deep into the prairies next week - I'll enjoy the 6 hour car ride to there and back so I can read etc...

been working on the car ride phobia... 8 hours there and 8 hours back... hopefully the trip will help me get use to riding in the car some more.

Oh furrckk

The owners of the restaurant that I was working at has COVID. Last time I was there was last Sunday.

Something twisted in my life always happens right before or after the mushes

Sometimes I’ll take emetrol which is a otc nausea med.

A lot of times my vape helps with nausea but I don’t recommend whatsoever to start if you don’t smoke cigarettes.