Roll Call 192

It’s 70 here with a strong breeze…..so beautiful out.

I got the 4th shot and it made me seriously sick. I'm hoping to feel better soon. I hope everyone is ok.

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Hope you feel better soon, Angelique! I got sick after the 3rd shot. I am not eligible yet for the 4th shot but I am not looking forward to it. When is this Covid stuff going to end?

I have a cold but I care not! And so, I regret taking any of my 2 vaccines lol.. Tested negative so w/e the tests are only for the first strain - So are the vaccines! Lol.. COVID will be here forever - Just the like common cold. Hundreds of K deaths a year as always.

The Zoloft is giving me heart palpitations just like every other serotonergic drug. I thought about stopping it but my mom says that it's the caffeine and to keep taking.

I'll just increase the dose very slowly or stay on 25mg.

I'm super tired today. I just drank a Coke hoping the caffeine would help but it doesn't seem to be helping!

It feels like I didn't even take Vyvanse today but I know I did. I think it's the weather messing with my Fibromyalgia. One day it is hot. The next day it is cold. It is making me tired and achy and cranky. Lol

Helen sat with me for a long time this morning when we were watching the news. It was so nice! My Dad was not up yet or else she would have sat with him. She might be my cat but she likes my Dad best.

I’m gonna look into cosmology again because it interests me.
I still feel lazy but I think the meds might be working.

So I paid off my car on 5/5/22 and today it is in the shop because the air conditioning switch is going out. At least I think that is what it is. What a pain. I swear that they only make cars to last 5 years no matter how many miles you put on it. It only has 26,000 miles on it. They probably won't have the part so it will probably have to go back in the shop when they do get the part. I hope it does not take long to get the part because it is going to be hot here soon. It took like 2 weeks to get the appointment in the first place. What a pain.

Yknow what... I'm gonna stop the Zoloft. This heart stuff is ridiculous.

When I was falling asleep last night, it felt like my chest flipped and I felt pain the centre of my chest.

I took one 25mg today though - I'm an idiot. These decisions are going to give me anxiety.

There has to be a better way - I just freak out about my heart. It never ends. I don't want to be that one person that has a sensitivity 0.001% sudden death, side effect. Just like the vaccines. 10's of thousands of people died from them but millions are apparently immune to COVID - Yet they still get COVID?

That's WHY I just need to think for myself and listen to my own body/mind (Lost touch with reality mind?) - All of this is gaslighting. The psilacetin showed me somewhat truth.. I have a mission from the Gods. People can call me an idiot but I need to make decisions, grow and learn from mistakes. MY OWN mistakes =/

I feel like this trip is not going to happen. For me at least. My family is already there and I'm supposed to meet them. I am getting used to the Librium instead of Klonopin and that's really hard.

On a positive note, I just wrote a song.

No its ok.. ill stay on the Zoloft. If I die in sleep etc then w/e

My mom said that I can stop taking it

I think I'm depressed.

I hate when upper management at work has me do a task that I already told them has to be done by someone who is a signer on the bank account (which I am not) but they still tell me to call the number anyway, which I do and then I am told I can receive no information because I am not a signer on the account. So frustrating. At least I get paid to waste my time and everyone else's. /Rant over

Hopefully I am just tired and a good night's sleep will "cure" me.

I don't think I am going to get my car back from the shop today.

You know your body best. Zoloft I’ve heard is a hard one to start I’ve heard.

Hopefully! I think sometimes sleeping helps me. But only the "right" kind of sleep. If I feel like I'm on too many medicines sometimes that affects how I sleep. Or on too little medicine...

I was on Zoloft in the past. I (in my considered opinion) think Effexor has been way better for me.

I don't know. SNRIs seem to be better than SSRIs for me. And mirtazapine too.

Also, Desoxyn, you might consider buying "The Prescriber's Guide" by Stephen Stahl. It's a bit expensive, but it has helped me learn a lot about the meds. Unless, that is, it would make you question stuff more, in which case, don't buy it. But it has definitely helped me make informed decisions about meds in the past.

I'm so tired from working. I said no to working until Friday but I'll work tomorrow (Because they're really good and hardworking people - They need help) only if I can come in at 10am (Cuz I need sleep) + good extra money.

This is the exact type of thing that makes me want to set things on fire lol..