Roll Call 195

I volunteer 3 days next week, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Plus 2 days the following week. It will be from 11am-1pm each of those days. Then if those 5 days go well I'll sign up for some more upcoming shifts

I had a romaine salad today. I put in some sliced turkey breast and used spicy hummus as kind of a dressing even though it's not technically a dressing. I just put two spoonfuls of the hummus into the salad and it was really good

I never thought of hat…it sounds both excellent and really healthy.

Abilify has truly changed my life. Taking all my meds consistently too. I'm more active than I've ever been. I exercise, cook, clean a lot, get out of the house, spend time with friends, go to building events, go to my dental appointments. I'm on a normal sleep schedule for the first time in my life. I sleep from 9 or 10pm till 6-7am every single day. I'm no longer up for 3 days at a time or going weeks sleeping 3-4 hours a night. I take my meds 3 times a day every day around the same times (around 8am, 2pm, and 8pm)

Oh and I shower at least every other day and brush/floss at least 2 times a day, sometimes 3 times a day

I have been waking up at 2 AM every day since getting out of the hospital. So far I have cleaned most of my closet and my bureau.

Yeah Abilify changed me too…as first I was resistant but now I feel like this is closer to who I was supposed to be if I didn’t have MI.

I’m on 819mg every three months injection of invega trinza and 6mg daily of risperadone. When i missed my injection by a week I’m thinking bizarrely until I get my injection of invega. I’m the apeman….

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DBT Handouts Pleasant events.pdf

Hopefully that works.

I also hope it doesn't violate copyright or anything. If it does I guess I can take it down.

I am so stressed.... Ughh!!!

I am beginning to get the confusion again. I don't know what to do when this happens.

Smoked too much weed, watched a disturbing video and had the feeling of paranoid schiz. My cognition will need to recover.

That list looks really pleasant WA. I need to be more simple like that. But am very impulsive.

I hate Klonopin. I need to get off the stuff.

My cognition has been 60% restored. Woosh.. Reality is a weird thing. And I'd hate to lose touch with it forever - But one thing I know.. is that common delusions are true. You just got to laugh about them though. It's the only way - Once you are as wise as a small goat.

Awesome list!!!

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Thank you for posting this, I just downloaded the pdf to my laptop so I can look at it whenever I need to

Might email it to myself then print it out at the library so I can have a physcial copy of it

It is a good day!

There is a world in my head.. that I'd like people to see. But I can't express. And the universe.. It is an expression of the Gods.

And I am God.. and idk what to do. But it's okay. Don't worry, schiz friends.

Olanzepine needs to kick in. Maybe I shouldn't prolong taking it after 5pm.

Here’s a cool self-care app I got, it’s called Finch, it’s available in the App Store, it’s free (you can upgrade it but I’m using the free version and it’s fun), you get a virtual pet that grows with you as you complete goals and stuff

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Here’s a screenshot

Here’s another one from my profile on the app

I want to get back into learning Italian, I took an Italian class in college and loved it and didreally well in it. I'm thinking of getting back into studying it on my own for awhile, just using stuff like duolingo for now, that class was a few years ago, like 2017 I think, and I haven't kept up with studying so I'll have to start with the basics again. But it should be a fun thing to do. One of my goals is to get good enough in it to read a whole book in Italian. Eventually I'd like to learn Japanese as well. Maybe I can study both at the same time, they're both not Latin based, and very different from each other, only Italian is Latin based, so it shouldn't be too difficult to keep them separated in my head and not mix them up

My first day volunteering is tomorrow. A little nervous, hope it goes okay. I'm looking forward to it though. I can do it, it's just 2 hours. Once I get through the first initial day the rest of the days I'll be less anxious. I don't think they're going to yell at me and get mad at me if I make a mistake or something. The more I get out of the house and do things the better I feel. Also it will feel like I'm doing something meaningful with my time.

That too much weed 2 days ago really set me back. Don't smoke weed.

I believe we all possess a sixth sense.

Anxiety. I should have went for the hike with my mom - and not drink alcohol when my psychiatrist told me to take clonazepam for these cases.

I know I'm making things worse for myself. I'll try harder.

I took olanzepine and I'll see if that helps before taking benzo (Angelica I think told me this) - Not to just take both.

Edit: I'll build myself up to trying therapy again. Every time I want to call the clinic, it's the weekend or too late in the day.

Edit: I'll make some effort to meditate too. This song I'm listening to.. It was a song I listened to on the computer when I was like 10 years old - I felt completely elated, first time ever using a computer, listening to songs before anyone came home.

Is my life worthless.. Or why had it to be like this. It's for sure a good thing. And I'll continue to laugh at absurdity, have good morals etc.. And just be a soul, floating throughout dissociating dimensions.