wanting others to be in it with you???

a nasty incident with my daughter the past wkend has left me with "fantasys", i hate that word but that is what T insists on calling them...she says I am left with the fear and rage from teh original incident and its triggering past events in my life...that when I say to her why cant she see what I see she can see i'm distressed but then asks me what i make of other people not being able to see what i am seeing? i goes that it makes me feel even more lonelier with it then ever...t says she thinks its a delima for me because if she says that she doesn't see what i see because it isn't real, then that makes me feel lonelier, but if she was to say she did see what i am seeing then that would make it worlse for me...but why do i feel so angry that she will not enter what i am seeing??? why do i feel so badly i need her to enter it with me?...why is it i am staying in it and not taking her hand of escape so too speak?...i feel betrayed by her because she wont see what i see...but why?...

I always hated the psychiatric term "fanticising" too. It seems to mean you are doing something stupid.

But. Are you seeing something visually or just seeing in your mind's eye?

I think a therapist should let you describe it and not say much and let you talk about it.

I'm seeing it in my mind and in my eyes...

Can you talk about it with T or anyone else? Or write about it?

Evidently doing that helps the brain make sense of things -- puts images and thought together. It seems to help me.

Yes, I can completely understand this.
I always viewed my hallucinations and 'fantasies' as a big part of my life. As part of my personality so to speak? I can't explain well, sorry.
So when people just want to get rid of it and call it fantasy...it is annoying. You think that they are ignoring a big part of your personality?

yeah thats how it feels.

I don't think others are capable of seeing what we see because we're seeing idiosyncratically. Have you ever wished your T could be with you back in time? That's the same thing kind of? One can't get there from here. The point back in time is important to us, and I think T's see that and understand that, but the way we approach that point and try to work with it is part of our individual "struggle" to understand using our own minds/hearts/psychology and no one else can enter into it because it's all in our own heads that way.

I don't think it is wrong or bad to want T's and others to be in it with you. I eventually taught myself a little trick of giving credit to my T for "trying" to understand instead of only understanding. Noticing how hard my T was listening and trying to comfort me and be with me got to representing the real thing. I began to realize I knew where she "was" and that I could go there when things got tough in my inner world and she'd understand that much.