Wishing my mind would slow down.............

I am having trouble concentrating this weekend. I have a essay due Tuesday night and I cannot even start the paper. Wish these thoughts would calm down so I could just think. I know I can do this if I could just calm myself enough to work.

This last week I took my final in Social Methods, I did ace the test but it took all I had to study. I am finding myself procrastinating until the last second. It is not good I know, but it seems I do best when I work that way.

I will be starting my next class on Tuesday night at 8:00 pm. So I do not have a lot of procastinating time as I have reading to do. But I cannot stop my thoughts long enough to read at all. Sometimes I wonder if I am cut out for this.

Just wish I could settle down for even a moment.

dps

sometimes it helps (to slow down your mind) - by using words to tell your mind to "slow down".
When it comes to essay-writing (I used to leave mine until the weekend just before they were due, then write all weekend) - so grab a piece of paper - and start writing
down the words/ideas that come to mind - that'll get you started (as you already probably know).
Write a draft of your intro paragraph - that'll include your topic and what your essay is all about.
All the best

I'm in the same boat as you...let me know how you did Tuesday and I'll let you know whether I finished my paper due Tuesday....***crosses fingers***

((((Rose3))))

Thank you for the advice and support. It was all I could do to write the paper. The thoughts were just swallowing me that I am carrying. It is something I cannot just stop. I wish I could.

I did not start anything over the weekend. It was all I could do to just to survive. But I did start yesterday. Seems I work best under pressure. I did finish it and got it posted on time. With a new class that started lastnight, it was touch and go.

I have one more paper due in two more weeks. I hope I can start before the day before or the day of. I just need to think, which my mind just keeps racing, yet the race never ends.

Thank you again for your encouragement and support. I send you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps

((((Fuzzy))))

Thank you my friend for your love and support. It meant more than you will know. You are always there and it really touches my heart. We love you fuzzy----always will. Sending you loving thoughts and many gentle hugs. Always.

dps

((((Junerain))))

Just wanted to let you know that I did get my paper done. I had so much trouble concentrating. Right down to the wire. I could not start until yesterday afternoon. I tried to look up references and get them written down yesterday morning but I had to take a break as my head was just pounding.

I worked non-stop yesterday afternoon and early evening. My next class on campus started lastnight so I lost some time. My on-line class paper was due by 12:00 midnight. What I did not realize was that it was due at that time on my professor's time. Which thankfully it was 2 hours difference. I needed it.

I had it written before class and I had to post it within an hour when I got home. I got home early as class was dismissed early, so I sat down to get ready to post it and send it in. Somehow I hit the wrong key and it was gone. All my work and I had only 2 hours to re-do the paper and get it posted.

I was lost and upset and ready to just say forget it. But I sat down and started over. I was so frustrated and tears were filling my eyes so that I could not see. I made myself sit there and re-do the paper and posted it just 4 minutes before the deadline. I could not even breath a sigh of releaf for an hour afterwards. I was just sick and my head would not stop pounding.

When it was all said and done, I did finish and it was there when it was suppose to be. Had I not talked to the girl in the office and found out I had that 2 hour leeway, I do not know what would have happened. Stress hurts and even though I work best under pressure, that was cutting it too close.

I hope you had better luck with your paper. I hope you got it finished and turned in on time. You will have to let me know. I was thinking of you even though I am just now posting back to you. Forgive my selfishness. I wish I could turn off my mind, but still it races. It is not just school and it is not something I can just turn off.

Thank you for your thoughts and for caring. I hope you are doing okay. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

I've done the night before due paper so many times I lost count. I'm glad you were able to get it finished. I know that's one load off your mind. I too wish my thoughts would just calm down for a moment so I could focus on things that need to be done instead of feeling like my feet are made of lead and then all of a sudden everything is on top and me and I'm feeling so pressured.

With this one due in 2 weeks, you have some time to try to start with organizing it. That never really helped me too much though as I found I did work better under pressure but I still think it's due to ADD and I'd feel so much better if I was "like everyone else" and had it done and was able to proof it several days before due.

I feel for you and hope you are able to find some calm today at least.

Take good care of you.

((((Briester))))

Thank you my friend for the support and care. It means so much. I am glad the paper is done and finally turned in. My thoughts are still racing though. It really has nothing to do with the paper. It is what is going on for me right now.

I do have time to start organizing but I know me, I will wait. Right now there is so much going on that I am trying to deal with that it is hard to even concentrate on anything else. But I am trying.

I do not have ADD or anything it is just stress. I am not sure I can even be a therapist or that I should even be trying. I do not know if I can do this. And what kind of a therapist could I possibly be.

As far as being like "everyone else" I am not sure I would wish that. For in that we would lose ourself. What is "everyone else"? Normal, I do not know. I know I would not want you to be like "everyone else" for you are unique and special. You bring so much to all of us by who you are. There is no other like you and that is a good thing.

I know I would miss the Briester I have come to know if you were like "everyone else" and if we were not ourself, and everyone was alike, what kind of world would we live in? What kind of support and caring could we bring to one another here on PC?

Briester, I like you just the way you are. I know sometimes things are really hard and we feel like there is no hope, but in that loss we have one another here on PC where others understand--maybe in different degrees and on different levels, but we are all walking this journey to healing together one step at a time.

Sometimes we take it day by day--sometimes we take it minute by minute--and sometimes like now, I am taking it second by second--but in those seconds I know that my PC family is right here walking beside me cheering me on and standing beside me and accept me for me.

So, hold onto yourself. Know we love you for who you are. Thank you again for the support and caring. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

I am glad you got your paper done.

((((Rmdctc))))

Thank you my friend. I was glad too. It was touch and go for a while as I wanted to just go to bed and not do it again. I ended up with an A on the paper. It was worth staying up and doing it again. Thank you again.


dps

Yay Yay You Got an A, Woohoo Congrats to You!

Ok so I never would have made it as a cheerleader but anyway..very well done my friend. I'm so happy for you.

Glad you got an A. It always feels good to get things done you know you need to and then getting a great reward from it.