[angie2716]

Well I saw the psychiatrist today. Oh and my dr put me on some new medicine to go along with the colonapen. Its called Symbyax. Has anyone here been on this? But we talked for about 2 hours. And she wants me to bring my husband in with me next week. She wants me to tell him. She said we will start off by telling him and giving him info about depression and panic attacks. And then she would have me start in by telling him that I'm afraid of talking to him about stuff because of how he will act. And then tell him and show him. So I dont know how thats gonna go.

[Sannah]

I like this open approach.

[angie2716]

I do too but im just afraid of how he will act once we get home.

[Tatyana2009]

Hey Angie,

I am glad to hear that the dr is listening to you and helping. Inviting your husband to come along and approaching this this way is good. However - if you are afraid he will do something to you when you get home - please do not risk it. Talk to your dr about your fears, before the appointment with him. Your safety is important here. What do you think he might do?

How are you feeling today?

Thinking about you xxx

[lxegirl]

It good that your husband knows about this, because he surely can help you, i bet. Its nothing to be ashamed of, so don't worry about it!!

[angie2716]

Im afraid he will flip out and leave and take the kids. just his temper scares me.
im feeling worse today. the medicine is making me dizzy and unbalanced. and sleepy with no energy whatso ever

[puzzclar]

Sometimes when you try a medicaiton it may not be the right one or the right does. I say this because I've been on a few dozen. But soemthings to keep in mind. If the side effects are too bad, call your doctor and tell him/her.

Also if you are scared about how your husband will respond tell your doctor, and bring him in when YOU are ready. Keep in mind, that T and Couselors can help with the fear/anxiety/worry of what would happen afterwards. Keep us posted. And I hope the side effects go away quickly, and that it is the right drug for you. Again keep us posted.

[Tatyana2009]

I agree with Puzz.

Tell the doc Angie about your worries re his temper, taking the kids, etc.

I feel for you but I have strong belief you will get out of this stronger. Try to see it as a river you have to cross, and the other side is beautiful and worth it.

Please get all the help you can get - from everyone around you. You need it. Then your husband power over you will lessen.

Hugs xxx

[Sannah]

Tell the therapist before, as the others have mentioned and talk about it also during the appt. You can say something like "I'm afraid about what you are going to do once we get home" or something? Does your husband really have the resources to take the kids away?

[angie2716]

Thank you. thats what ive thought about saying. hes been acting really caring here lately so im going to tell him when we go in. i go in first so she can make sure im ready and come with a strategy of how im going to tell him. and they may put me in the hospital because i will be going through withdrawls of not being able to cut im probably gonna be watched non stop cause im afraid that i cant quit. its the only thing keeping me from doing the other.

[puzzclar]

You can and Will be able to stop. If going to the hospital is what it takes then go ahead and go in. Do what ever you have too, to get the help. It is worth it, if you are afraid for your own safety. Keep us posted.

Hope it works for you, angie2716.

[angie2716]

Thank yall. I hope it works out to. I'm gonna be going once a week to see if it helps. Then if it doesn't they will put me in a hospital. The only thing is I feel like a child being babysat. I get checked every morning for any new marks. It's been 3 days since I did anything so thatls good. But I still want to so bad. But I know he will get mad. And i told him that yesterday. And he said he would get mad but he would get over it.

[Sannah]

I can understand how you would feel like a child. What can you do so that you don't feel this way? He said that he would get over being mad. It seems like this would be a good opportunity for you to become that adult when facing your husband. It isn't about him, it is about you. It is about you feeling like you are an adult and, therefore, acting like one. I can totally understand how you got to this point. I grew up after I became an adult too, years after. You are stronger than you think. I can understand growing up with no power and never feeling like you have any. You have power. You are an adult. Seize your power Angie............... Empowerment is such a huge part of mental health. You can't have mental health without it.

(And maybe it is time to look into anger triggers that you have - what you learned about anger while growing up, etc.)