:-( Update on me.........

I think I have damaged my nerves as my middle knuckle twitches so fast when I lay my hand flat.I think the doc is going to have to have a look Im going at 1.So Will keep you all informed..Just feel such a silly *****...Im hoping they dont say hospital to me otherwise I will crack.Thats the last place I want to go.........I feel so low.......My hand is infected I had to have a swab done and have just took it too the hospital.so many questions are going through my head at the momment I just want to go in bed and pull the covers over my head for the next 5 years.But like my mum said to me it would still be all there when I wake up........I feel such a stupid waste of space.Why Did I have to do it this bad.........Why Did''nt I realise That Burns are more dangerous ....I suppose Ive been lucky I mean all the injuries Ive done to myself have never been as bad as this.Dont know if thats good or bad.......I dont know.I just want to cry Its strange cause even though Im in alot of pain menterally and now phsyically...I still want to hurt myself again for causing my self to be like this.They are true when they say there are habits that you cant escape from..But I really want to stop doing this too myself I dont deserve this pain.........I dont deserve a life thats just chaos and pain.....I want help In stopping me doing this I want to find other ways of stopping this I hate alcohol Always been my other option.I want to feel normal and most important I want to be alive !!!!

I think thats all I can say at the momment...........

I am just sending you a hug sweetie.
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin

** hugs hugs hugs**

I have did what you did, and Iknow it hurts, but trust me, you can overcome this... It is a very hard road, but when you truly start to love yourslef, that is the first step..
I know that is very hard to do, I have had to make myself do this over and over again..

But if you do not at least try to love your self, no matter what, you will contuine to do this.. Inner beauty is better than outward beauty..

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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I do not believe that this is a habit that we cannot break. I believe that if we put our heads together we will come up with a solution or a path we can start to follow to stop what we do to ourselves. Take care of that hand and try to forgive yourself for doing it in the first place. We all do things we regret, I am trying to forgive myself for those mistakes I hope you can too.
Take care,
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson

Next time you will know. I'm sorry that you are having such a rough time. You do deserve better, and I'm glad that you want to be alive. I hope you will get your hand looked at, as it sounds pretty serious and I'm afraid you'll regret it if you don't.

What are you going to do to work towards improving your life? What would you like to be doing?

{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}


<font color=purple>"The real problem of mental life is not why some people become insane, but rather why most avoid insanity." -Erich Fromm</font color=purple>

***************hugs********************

I also hope that your hand will be ok. When we think like that, we don't worry about the outcome - we don't think ahead.

Keep those positive thoughts going - you are a very special person and deserve happiness.

Mary Alice

Hi all

My hand is getting better slowly,Still have too see the nurse 3 times a week But its nice to have someone look after me for a while. Its been nearly 2 weeks now since I have been bandaged up Thankfully my parents have been so supportive I see my shrink On the 6th Im hoping to have the bandage off by then as He will go nuts When he sees me wrapped up again.I cant handle the 50 questions that he will throw at me.Im hoping he wont lock me up either.......why do shrinks make you feel so uncomfatable?? do not need skin grafts now thank god the nurse says They are looking abit better....Im so pleased In a way !!!

Hope you are all ok(ish)

Talk soon

Louise
xxx

Hugs for you, ((((((Louise))))))...

<font color=blue>HI FROM PEANUT</font color=blue>

Hang in there. {{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}} Things will get better.


<font color=purple>"The real problem of mental life is not why some people become insane, but rather why most avoid insanity." -Erich Fromm</font color=purple>

I'm really glad for you, Louise. Please take care of yourself, you deserve it.

Mary Alice

I think it is their job to make us feel uncomfortable to a certain extent. I hate it but if Dan didn't press into those uncomfortable places I would still be stuck way back there in the beginning. Hang in there.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson

Thanks everyone for supporting me :-)

Love you all to bits !!!