[Yoshi]

Idk why, But latlley i've been wanting to try cutting.
I used to burn myself with lighters and with ciggerettes, and I loved it.

I know that this sounds horrible, but its been bothering me and its so tempting....I cant stop thinking about it :[

Ugh idk what to do, I promised someone I love very much that I would'nt, but its been really hard today, idk if it might be because i've been a little depressed, but i'm feeling alot better and I dont know why i'm having these thoughts.

[Erinkidd01]

It's not worth it. I started about a year ago and every day I regret that decision. It became an addiction and I couldn't stop thinking about it. My life became about trying to hide and ever since has been going downhill. I tried to stop many times and hadn't been able to untill I literally scared myself with how out of
control it got. Please don't try it. It just makes things much worse in the long run. Once you start, it's very difficult to stop.

[(JD)]

If you are in the market to choose coping mechanisms, why would you choose one that is detrimental and brings shame and embarrassment, and one that you have to UN-learn as you heal?

Keep pushing the negative thoughts out of your mind and think better things.
If you have a counselor or therapist, be sure to talk about active coping skills that will help you heal, and not give you something else to worry about.

[forgivexforget]

PLEASE do not try it. I've been cutting for 7 years and I wish I could stop so bad, but it's become so addicting that it's going to take a LOT of hard work and support for me to stop. Seriously, don't try it. If you need support, people are here for that, and you can message me. Try finding distractions too. Music, reading, writing. Think positive things too.

[Yoshi]

Well as sad as it is to say, I did it. Idk why, its been on my mind.

Me and my dad got in an argument, and of course, I got the crap beat out of me. Nobody would help me, not even my own family that was sitting there watching.

I just ran up stairs and seen a knife that I keep in my room, because i'm so scared of my dad....And thats how it happened. I loved it, and do regret it, but I promised many people (And myself) that I will not do it again. My friends and bf and supporting me in every way, though there mad I did it, there not going to leave my side, that alone gives me a HUGE reason not to do it anymore.

Though its not just my family that made me want to do it.
I had a really good friend that died last year, he cutt himself really deep, and he ended up having a cezure ( though he had those often) and it split open and he bled to death.
I know this sounds ****ed up, but I wanted to feel what he was going threw, it was like I wanted his pain, I wanted to know what he was going threw and why he did it.

But then again, I cant help the feeling of wanting to do it again....

I just feel like such a psychopath from wanting to do it to feel someone elses pain, and I knew that it was going to cause others around me pain, but I still did it. What the hell is wrong with me?

[michelle421]

it's good for you to acknowledge to yourself that you don't want to do it again... remember that thought, the feeling of caring about yourself. you do matter. you deserve to have healing and to feel better. even though terrible things happen to us sometimes, there is a way to get through it. as we grow and learn, we become more aware of other coping mechanisms to get us through the difficult times.

i can understand what you mentioned about feeling other people's pain. i am very sensitive and caring. it's ok to have empathy... to work towards understanding others. you sound very caring, and that's not wrong. but it is important to remember that you can't heal other people's pain. and you can't change the past. i am sorry for the loss of your friend. i hope that you can work towards healing yourself. you deserve it.

[Yoshi]

Thanks so much Michelle

I know that I will end up doing it again, But with all the support I have from friends and PC, I will get threw it.

[splitz]

'Knowing I will end up doing it again' is setting you up to fail, it's like you have already given yourself permission to do it and it's ok.
It's not ok, I used to do it alot (managed to cut an artery once - not fun), I managed to 'not do it much' for a few years but since last year I have been doing it more and more, it's never enough, I have needed stitches a few times (only ever went to my GP once to get them) I'm ashamed of myself.
I spent those years 'growing out' the scars so they were not so obvious, I could wear short sleeves etc and not worry what people thought, now my arm is a mess (sent a pic to a friend who wanted to 'try it' and luckily iy scared her enough she didn't do it) I can't wear short sleeves without it being 'in your face' obvious, I have to hide my arm from people who know that I have done it because I don't want them either worrying about me or being disappointed in me. It's not clever and it's not fun.
You seem to have enough insight to know that yet you seemed to look for a reason to use it as a coping strategy - the only person it hurts is you (and if you do ever have to go get stitches hope that you get the nice nurse / Dr who doesn't treat you badly and make coments about time wasting and there being 'really' sick people who need their help.) You sound intelligent, try and find another way of coping, cutting isn't it.
Sorry if I sound harsh but I hate to think of people having the same probs with scars etc that I do.
Splitz

[Yoshi]

Splitz your not being harsh at all! Also, Thanks for the information, very helpful.

[puzzclar]

I wish i had time to read all of the posts, but I do have a few things to say!!

1. Stop cutting as fast as you can. It's not worth it. Think of it when you get married or have sex, do you want people to see the scares??

2. Find something else that helps. For me it was exercise. I work out hard for 20-45 minutes 3-5 times a week, and that sems to really help.

3. Find someone to talk to!!! This one is crucial. But the first two you cna do on your own.

Please take the time to concider the after affects of what you are doing. Take for example if you cut, and some one sees it. Do you want to live in Hiding all your life??

Please stop now, find something else that will help. If you want to talk, I would be more than happy to talk to you.