Cracked completely

Ebpm From or for you ? if from you, then no.
The current difference between us is that I know that there is help, i know its there, i could probably easily get it, but i'm stupid enough to trust no-one, and as such, i refuse to get help. On the other hand, you dont realise that if you pick someone carefully who you know, the likelyhood of them going nuts/leaving/not talking to you is reduced if you think about what type of person they are. I know its lonely, i know it feels like when your meant to live in the sea, and your stuck in the middle fo the desert, alone.
We are here for you, and i think most people on here would back that up.

[quote= We are here for you, and i think most people on here would back that up.[/quote]

I know I got your back too =)

My mom keeps screaming at me...I think she has her own depression. When her dad ditched her family when she was young, I found out she was hospitalized....I officially despise heredity. But enough about me, how are all of you doing?

No, never "enough" from you, keep talking if you want =] Feel free to PM me =]
How am i doing ? not too good, but i'm sure i'll live, had a complete mess last night due to family and all, but i'm still here, slipped up again, and i'm SO angry with myself.. The pressure never seems to go away unless, yeah, i do silly things, its one of those love hate things.. its the most stupid thing on the planet, why am i so thick, if i'm not careful i'll end up in the crazy hospital again..

Yes, this is a choice that you can make but you came here because SI is a problem? You can make a different choice and of course not all choices are perfect.

Sannah's right. I know you say you'll live but I think you should go to a T. Just for a little while at least to get you back on track a little more. I admit T's can be a pain in the @$$ sometimes but come on, they were trained for this. We, on the other hand, were thrown into this sortof involuntarily.

I don't really truelly trust anyone except myself to be honest. ;-) not that I don't trust anyone here, it's better to trust people I don't know. (if that makes any sense lolz)

hugshugshugshugshugs! ;-) xD

Yeah i did come here because its a problem, and the problem is mainly because I like it so much, which is the reason why its so bad for me.
And yes I can make a different choice, i just, i need to break the.. addiction (I hate that word)
And involuntarily, well, its all my fault, i'm the one who screwed up big time in the first palce so its my responsibility, its my fault i'm like this.

It's a problem because you like it so much? The only way you can break the addiction is by going to therapy. Addictions are needed because you can't handle your feelings. In therapy you can learn how to deal with your feelings and then you won't need the addiction.

People get to where you are at because of how they developed and I never met a child who was responsible for his development. This comes under the responsibility of parents. So, therefore, you aren't responsible for how you developed. If you are an adult now then you are responsible for what you do from here on out.

Email the Samartians. It's helped me so much, I can't even tell you.;-) but yeah, I think you should see a T. I think I should too, so you're not alone.;-)

I know it's hard. It's always hard, and it is not your fault! Never say that, because you had nothing to cope with. But now you have to get help, even if it's just a little, or if you go see a T.

Just know that we're here, and we understand you.;/)