Stop this Madness!

I can't stand being the one that causes everyone problems and am hated and despised! My dad's gf thinks I don't like her...ok I made a joke after she made a joke and she got really hurt! I didn't mean to hurt her! I swear I didn't!

Nothing I ever do is good enough for anybody! I need to cut so freaking badly! Maybe I should just end it all right here right now! I have my razor right here at the computer and I want to cut so bad, but my bf won't leave me alone! I want to just be alone!

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so sorry you going through this..........do you have a Therapist can you call them? call a hotline and talk to someone...........but dont cut when your this upset.........that is one promise I made to my Shrink and my T that I will not cut in ANGER or WHEN I feel I want to end it all..........I would call them first or call the hotline or go to the emergency room..........you need a break...........you did nothing wrong from I see.........you told a joke and there is nothing wrong with that.....if she got hurt by something you said that is about her......you cannot let her feelings determine how you feel.........if you know you did not mean to hurt her and you like her then she is the one with the problem...please try to think it that way....but please do not cut when your in this kind of stress....I am talking from experience and I do not want you to go there....
please take care and keep posting and get your feelings out ...we all here are listening and care about you....xoxoxoooxoxo

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please don't cut when you are emotionally in the shape you are in. Is there someone you can contact? Therapist, pdoc, good friend and talk it thorugh. Give yourself some time and then see how you feel. Please wait until you are rational.

I am sorry your fathers g/f did not take your joke kindly. It is not your fault that she got upset it is hers. Don't let her emotions rule yours.

It is no wonder if you are upset if you are expected to be perfect. That is an unrealistic standard and please try and not let it hurt you. Just do your best.

There are people here to listen. Please feel free to contact me anytime. Take care of yourself. Try and be kind to yourself.

This madness will never stop! I'm doomed to be in pain forever! My mother's gone, my father doesn't care, and I'm all alone! You know that loneliness...when you're around people who love you and everything and still feel alone...Blackdragon...are you there?

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Sorry you are feeling so bad. I wish there were more that I could do to help you but I just don't know what to say. Please take care of yourself. You matter, and we care about you here.