why is the need stronger

i never really stopped SI but i did go for months inbetween needing to do this but for some reason i am feeling the need to do this all the time and am doing it in one form or another atleast once a week.i have no idea why the need has come back so strong.im quite confused.i even have plans on doing something tonight .i probibly wont but i have spent a lot of time planning what i want to do it is just strange.i have no real reason to want to do this.

The simple fact that you have posted here is a cry for help. Sometimes. And there are other times we don't know why we do it. It could be something like just your emotions and how you handle them. So is there one emotion that brings the SI on? I think looking a little deeper into your motives will help. And do you have a Professional to talk to about this?

thanks for responding yes i do have a T i have been seeing her for a year now but havnt told her that i SI.she sees my scars and thinks i use to SI i just never corrected her.

It's okay that you haven't come clean, but you will be able to, sooner or later. And keep talking to your T, maybe something will help. just hold on.

I am just wondering why you haven't told her you SI? I mean there might be a zillion reasons? Most T's can tell when scars are knew or old...Just a thought, but it might be good for you to let your T know maybe you at a point were there is something that you need to talk about?

I am NOT you and I don't know, but after all this time I just recently after 5 long years realized why my arms are such a huge target for me...My T has been asking me and I also target other places on my body but never as much as my arms However the thought's behind it came bellowing out and I didn't even know it???? So sometimes just letting the process take it's time you might not know at first but as with therapy it takes time, and in all good time behind it the doors do slowly open....And man when they do behind those doors can really lead you into a painful but the start of the healing process. Sorry dunno if that helps at all. I have NOT stopped on my arms Now I know more so why my arms are such victims of the awful torture, and I feel less like I am seeking attention like a child, and now I understand the pain behind it Hope this helps some what if it makes sense? Sorry my brain is not the best at making sense,
Take good care,
Kalisha

my arms are very badly scared from years of SI so i leave them alone now i tend to SI on other parts of my body that noone can see or i tend to SI in other ways.i have a hard time talking to T to put it mildly but i really felt no need to correct her i use to only do this maybe about every 4 months or so not really a big deal.lately it has been about once a week or so.has anyone here almost stoped and then just started doing it again and figured out why?

going to a family get together for my wicked grandmothers 95 b-day omg this is going to be so triggering i hate all of them they are so mean it is like walking into a den of rabid lions

Are you experiencing more stress in your life right now or having triggering dreams?

How did it go granite? When you start facing things in therapy (or attempting to face them) this can increase your stress and, therefore, increase your urges to SI.

((((sannah))))i'm having such a hard day i think i totaly ailinated everyone here also in the last few days.i just feel like the world hates he and my family also.i'm sorry i so just want to dissapear

Why do you think that you alienated people here?