[SilverGirl]

I have been blacking out and cutting myself. I thought it was the increase in the meds and so I stopped taking them. I have still been blacking out and cutting myself, except now the cuts are getting deeper. It has been almost three weeks since it all started and I have twelve cuts and my arms. I don't know what to do. When I went for help the first time to get my meds checked out they held me against my will for twelve hours and I sure as **** don't want that to happen again. I need help, I know, but I don't know were to get it or if I trust anyone to give it to me. My friend works in the ER, so everytime I cut she glues me back together. I know I have to stop because I don't want to get her into trouble. Any advice?
Amy

[kimmydawn]

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Are you seeing a therapist at all to talk with regularly? Talk therapy can really help alot. It can be a venting avenue.

Please keep yourself safe.

kd

[Rapunzel]

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Amy,

There is a reason why you are doing this. There must be something that bothers you a lot, and you aren't able to use a better way to cope with it right now. Learning to deal with what is bothering you in a constructive way is hard - usually more than someone can reasonably be expected to do without help. I know how scary and hard it is to talk to someone about stuff like this, but you deserve to have the help and it will turn out better than you think. Meds don't fix it and they don't teach you how to deal with it. If you're not already getting counseling, could you ask for a referral to a good therapist who can help you deal with the problems you're facing? You deserve better than this.
TC,
Rap
p.s. Let us know what happens, okay?

[SongBirdandDaisy]

SilverGirl,

I agree with what's already been said. My T says that the only way through the dark tunnel is through. Talking with someone, professional, will help a great deal. And sometimes it takes one or two until you find the right fit.

Please take care,
SongBird

[Fuzzybear]

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[cherybery]

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What you are going through is exactly what got me into seeing a trauma therapist. Some of the things she told me too do is change things around. For example, what ever you use too SI either toss it out, which would be the best thing too do, or put it in a place that it is not usually kept. You can also wrap it up in tape, like masking tape or duct tape. The time you spend opening it up can sometimes trigger you out of the blackout. She also told me too keep a journal handy and try too journal before and after. I learned from really being aware of how I feel, depending on intensity I can tell if I am getting to a point where I may possibly blackout. For me it is a sharp head pain. I know it can be very scary when you "come out of it" and think OMG what happened. I know some people may read my response and think "just get rid of whatever you are using" but sometimes it just is not that easy. Please be safe and if you need to talk please feel free to PM me!