[ickydog2006]

I was just wondering. It's almost been a year without now and I still crave cutting. I miss it a lot but don't want to go back to that life. My mind plays tricks on me that make me miss it even more and I constantly have to focus on not giving in.

Does this fight ever truly end or is it just something we dream of?

at the moment I have none. my urges to cut are not like sitting there and Im bored so Ok start thinking about cutting kind of thing. as long as I am not experiencing a super stressful situation the urge is not there. in the past year I have had mybe three situations in which the urge to cut was strong. I can't say I will never again cut and never again have that urge to cut. I believe cutting is like having an adiction to alcohol and or drugs. In drug and alcohol adiction the person has a problem and instead of taking care of the problem drinks or gets high to avoid feeling the pain and hassles of the problem. Sometimes people become adicted to drugs and alcohol because they believe drinking and doing drugs helps them to release and be their selves and so on.

Well my cutting is the same way I cut so that I did not have to think about the problem at hand. instead I could focus on the pain of cutting. I cut when my emotions and so on get to bouncing around my head to the point where I need to release by feeling a tangible pain instead of a non tangible emotion.

But now because I have been in therapy and have taken classes and so on I now know other ways to take care of my problems instead of ignoring that pain by inflicting more pain by cutting. I also now have a variety of other ways to release the bouncing around emotions by drawing writing, creating diaramas collages, clay and playdough and so on. So now things are not getting stuffed down to the point where I need that cutting release to lessen the pent up emotions.

I believe once a cutter I will always be a cutter and just like an alcoholic is always and alcoholic and must always take care to use appropiate ways over the alcohol or they will be right back in the black outs and so on, I must always take care and on guard regardless of how long its been so that I will continue to recognize when the urges hit and actively use other appropiate ways to release and express myself over the cutting.

[damajdancer]

My cravings usually are on and off constantly.
If im really pissed off, or depressed, or so on I get cravings.
But if im in a good mood(rarely)my cravings go away for awhile.
I hope you figure it out!
-Megan-

[Liv28]

I am going on seven years without cutting/burning..I no longer have cravings..I stopped having cravings after the first couple of years..I have flashbacks but I don't see this as being the same..because I do not feel like harming myself when this happens..and the scars bother me..but I dont crave it like I used to..in fact I loathe it..and I never see me resorting to this kind of harm again, and I was once a daily cutter and burner..I was hospitalized for it twice..I quit on my own..no one could help me..no one could make me..I chose to and I did..I believe when the time is right and you find the way for yourself and the truth for yourself..you will began to let loose the harm inside and with that, the want to harm outside as well..at least it was for me..and I wish the same for you!