WTF is wrong with me!!!!

Dealing with these uncontrollable mood swings is making me get very bad thoughts of hurting myself again. It's the suffering I feel in my head over and over that gets the feelings0 in my head to ease the suffering.
Been having a really hard time coping with my issues and letting them off of my chest. It's effecting my personality so much I just very frustrated and sick of fin everything right now.

I feel I can go off right now and chew someone a new ****ing asshole with all the anger and rage I got boiling inside me. Then I wind down and get so sad and self guilt about my thoughts it tears me up so bad I want to stop the hurting so much.

I don't know what to do anymore its just me fighting myself and not trying to do any major damage in the meantime.

Is there a way you can release the anger? Recently I had some issues with my cousin staying with us and moving out. It caused some problems and a lot of anger. After he moved out I blew off some steam by breaking an old TV in I had in the garage. Maybe you can buy some old dishes or something at the thrust shop and throw them to blow off some steam. Other people exercise and some people try meditation. I hope you can find a way to deal with your anger. People can only bottle so much up before they explode.

Have you ever seen a therapist? What you're describing sounds like Bipolar, but I'm no psych, only have Bipolar and know these feelings of anger oooooo so well...Can you get into a support group? Therapy can work wonders for you if commit to it

It's ok to feel the way you are feeling, remember that feelings are only that, they can't be right or wrong!

Keep your head up, You will overcome this, and remember you have a very supportive group here on these forums (: