[zombiette]

i used to be a regular self-harmer, almost on a daily basis, tho i'd use methods that weren't scarring (bruising, scratching,etc) so i don't have a problem with scars. anyway i hardly ever do it anymore, but earlier this week i burnt my wrist on a hot pot...i iced it afterwards really well so that it didn't scar (of course!) but i'm just dissappointed that i did it, just occasionally i seem to come back to this bad old habit. it's usually if i'm feeling numb or removed, i hafta prove i'm alive and bring myself back down to earth. also my depression is a lot better, i think it's close to not even becoming an issue anymore...in short, the idea of joining the "normal bridgage" after all those years seems daunting in some ways. it's like i had to SI just to prove i wasn't making it up in the past, that's how different i feel sometimes.

[Eleora]

We are all entitled to have slip-ups. It happens to so many people, so try not to be so hard on yourself for it.

I understand about the need to do it to prove something. Sometimes, I still think about doing it just because it feels like I need to prove to myself that I don't need it, and doing it once more without it meaning a thing will prove it (I don't know the logic in that, but that's basically how I feel about it).

Are you seeing any type of counselor or therapist?

[zombiette]

hey...i can see where ur coming from about doing it to prove u don't need it. i'm seeing a psychologist, have been since february, i'm finding her a great help.