SI Daily Check In

Thats a great step, well done you!

I am accepting that despite me thinking I am not getting any better, I am in remission from self harm. I haven't SH'd in months, and I am not having BIG urges to do so. Some days I will feel one part of my mind telling me to do it, and the other part will be louder saying "I don't really want to".

Well, last night I freaked out and had a panic attack while alone in the flat. My brother's supposed to be coming home today if he doesn't get stranded in Scotland. Anyway, somehow I managed to go without self harm despite my mind racing a mile a minute. I have minor urges to self harm today, but I believe I've got them under control.

having the biggest streak i had in months. 25 days. yet im in a bad place and really feel like i need it right now.

I couldn't sleep because I was stressed about school. So I SI'd. I almost did it again in the middle of the night. Now I am fighting the urges to do it now.

0 days, ended up having a little trip to the hospital, they certainly made me feel worse. Think the worst of it has passed for now. Supposed to be back at work in a day so who knows.

I'm still fighting the urges to SI. But it's getting harder and harder. I don't know how much longer I can last.

I had terrible nightmares last night about SI and hiding it and urges. Hoping I can push them out of my mind.

I SI this morning before I went to college. I just felt such a surge of emotions and it felt so loud and unforgiving in my head. The voices don't like me. I don't like them either. I couldn't control myself. I just had to because I felt like I was going to have a mental breakdown if I didn't do.

No SI urges. Just discharged from inpatient yesterday.

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1 day, out of hospital, feeling okay at the moment. Had an awkward discussion with my house mate because he saw the marks. Hopefully I can avoid adding more, although now that it's on my mind I definitely feel the urge.

I got humiliated in college. The tutor sent me home early because of the state my clothes were in. When I got home I just couldn't hold back the urges. So I SI'd because I'm finding it harder and harder to cope. The worst part is, I'm getting urges to use a knife. I haven't acted on those yet though and I hope it stays that way.

I'm 15 months clean and I almost relapsed the other night. I took the blade and did it as lightly as I could without it counting as "SI". Like, it broke skin but it didn't bleed. So mad that I even thought I could push the limits.

- AJ

Having urges, major urges

I'm having really strong urges. I want to hurt myself but at the same time I want to quit.

I need to sleep soon before my self control fails me.

i don't think i can do this anymore

Really strong urges right now. I'm going to SI soon and I know I can't help it.

I've been doing well for the most part. Having some urges lately though and I'm not sure why.

i have found that i may not cut myself anymore but then i started drinking/druging then i stopped that. some times i hurt myself with telling myself how horrible i am till i become depressed and moody angry and sad then i get a handle on that. at my best i now binge eat till i am hurting and puck it up and feel better and if that doesn't do it i run/work out till i cant handle the work load and push my self more.still all these thing are accompanied with feelings of worthlessness. i believe there is a way to live and be rid of the need to hurt, we are searching and we will fined it we cant give up.

I SI'd this morning when I got up. I just couldn't hold back anymore.

their's been no change in frequency here.

cutting loads

I have strong urges to SI. Life is just so unbelievably hard right now.

That's what I do. A lot, not deep b and a few days free before I do it again. I don't even know why most the time....

I cut this morning.