Screwing Up: It's Okay!

Hey all. I know I haven't been around in awhile but I've lurked and saw how many posts people make about feeling as if they can't make it. I just came around to let you all know that it IS possible to stop cutting. It's not easy, it might just be one of the hardest things you do in your life, but it is possible.

I quit after my grandmothers death. I just couldn't deal with the fact that she might be watching me do this to myself. So originally, I quit for someone else. But at the time it worked, and I accepted it. I got severely depressed about 7/8 months later, and I slipped up. To me, it was that, or something much worse. It was cutting or bust. So I cut, and it was small, and it was very much what I needed at the moment.

Now if I came here and told you guys that, everyone would have been supportive, telling me things would be okay and that I'm not a screw up, etc. But instead, I gave myself that leeway and accepted what I did as a one-time, extremely neccesary thing, but one that I would NOT do again. The shame and guilt of cutting after 7 months of being cut-free was enough to whip me back into shape. But I mean what I say when I say that in that situation I was in, all I thought that could help me was cutting.

My point is that I accepted my slip-up, learned from my mistake, and tried my best to move on. Nothing has to be perfect in life, and 'quitting' usually involves slip ups, mistakes, mess ups, and anything else that is the opposite of perfect. It's how we react, it's how we decide what to do once it's over. Do we learn from it, and move on, and continue our lives? Or do we succumb to our own demons and take the slip-up as the ultimate sign of disaster ahead. It's all up to you, the SI'er, to make those decisions.

So far, after my slip up, I've been (and wow because this is the first time I've actually counted the months...) about 9 months. This is after my slip up. All I'm saying is that you guys can do it, and you're all so awesome and brave and I have the most faith in all of you. Being a cutter isn't easy, you couldn't help the cards you were delt. But it's your choice on how you play them.

Please everyone, stay strong, be kind to yourself, and if you're doubting yourself right now take this post as a sign that everything will turn out okay. If you just believe in yourself a little bit, and forgive yourself for perceived mistakes, life can be a lot easier.

Love to you all!!!

-hereiam

Thanks hereiam!

Thanks for the great encouragement. You deserve congrats, too! Keep up the good work.

Yup it is possible to stop cutting. I have not cut in one year, seven months and seven days.

2 months 3 weeks 4 days yay i like wht youve said hereiam

I'm only where I'm at cause I had everyone here in the beginning.