I keep screwing up

I did so good for 6 months. Now I can't stop cutting. What has gotten into me. I like like a piece of chopped up meat...My body looks disgusting. No one will ever want to be in a relationship with me.

Someone can love you.
And I know you may not believe it or want to hear it but God loves you and nothing you do will take that away.

Also when you come across someone who truly loves you they will do so no matter what.

That doesn't take away from the fact that you should be working with a therapist on the deeper issues and work on resolving what is causing you to do these things to yourself.

You can get better... don't give up. It takes time and effort and heartache and sacrifice... but it is possible.

Stay safe.

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Lindsay said:
I did so good for 6 months. Now I can't stop cutting. What has gotten into me. I like like a piece of chopped up meat...My body looks disgusting. No one will ever want to be in a relationship with me.

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YOU cut as to numb the PAIN...... your drug of choice, so lets work on healing you and then the need for the drug called SI will lessen to the point of no longer being needed..... be patient and give comfort in knowing that you can heal.

<font color="pink"> ((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))) </font>

.... WE all CARE................ Please DO NOT give up.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

There are many caring, kind people out there. You will find one. I am sorry you are struggling with something that you are having such a hard time coping with. Do you see a t? Sometimes it is good to have someone to talk about things with. Also, feel free to PM me anytime you like. Please take care of yourself. You are worth it.

you will know your true love when they see your bueaty within regardless of your scars

my husband hating me cutting myself for the wrong reason but i did it anyway

but i must stress to you please stop now it has been 12 mths since my last cuts and trust me i went too far the scars are thick and still very noticeable i feel i have let him down but also myself as i look at my arms and body everyday

I have tried so many things instead of cutting but I always end up hurting myself. I have tried going for walks, taking hot showers, the ice cube thing, popping a rubber band, journaling, doing poetry, painting, drawing, talking to friends....nothing seems to work.... Am I destined to cut all my life.

Lindsay it took me a very long time to find other coping mechanisms. It can be so hard especially if things are hard for you right now. Are you seeing a t? Sometimes that can be helpful to help relieve some of the source of your problem. PM me if you like. No you are not destined to cut forever. Please be patient with yourself. You are worth it.

I have been seeing a t for 2 years now....She is like really totally awesome!!!!!

Dearest One,

There is a phrase I heard somewhere that comes to mind:

"The body sheds the tears the eyes refuse to weep."

Perhaps as you are working through the pain on the inside and your body is shedding those tears, you might at least write down what each cut stands for? Or draw a picture of the pain? Do this before you do what you do?

Another thing... maybe to consider... don't let the judgements of anyone else tell you what to think or feel. It is your path, your life, your walk. Give yourself the FREEDOM to do with your body as you see fit. That empowerment within yourself gives YOU and only YOU the freedom over your actions. ... and over each cut. It also gives you the full responsibility of each single action.

It is not about the future or about the past. It is about each cut and each single tear. Each single NOW. That is all we have. So when you express your pain in your body with your own freedom and knowing each single consequence of that single action, you are expressing yourself consciously. Become conscious of that expression and conscious of the pain underneath the expression. Then you have taken back YOUR POWER and YOUR FREEDOM.

Much love sent your way!!

Wow. What a powerfully moving post!

To view self-harming behaviours and to be conscious of it in this way, is the most reasonable sounding advice I have ever heard. Thanks wpowers.

And to Lindsey: if this helps at all, I'm feeling your pain with you. You are not alone.

See?

This post really struck me.... in a good way.

Thank you for that!!

Hello. I hope you are feeling better at this time. I am sorry that you are feeling bad at thie time, but you should think about getting help for the cutting, it can get better with the right help. I am going to give you my email address in case you wouldlike to email me, if you would like someone to talk to, or need support. I am also going to fgive you a crisis line number for cutters. 1-800-DONT-CUT. In case you need someone to talk to, ewhen you get stressed. My email address is neohiodbsa@yahoo.com. Email anytime