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Jan 12, 2014, 11:27 PM
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So I had something pretty devastating happen to me this weekend (read about it in the BPD forum), and I ended up going into a BPD rage. I didn't have a lighter to burn with or a blade to cut with so I ended up just punching myself as hard as I could in the same place over and over. Has anyone else resorted to this as a measure for SI?
I also am upset with the results. There are only tiny bruises thus far (boyfriend says it takes a while for them to set in), and I'm angry that I have nothing to look at. My cuts are manifestations of my physical pain and now there's nothing. Sent from my SPH-D710 using Tapatalk
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 Am I the only one I know, waging my wars behind my face and above my throat? Diagnosed: BPD PTSD Last edited by notz; Jan 13, 2014 at 12:31 AM. Reason: added trigger icon |
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Jan 13, 2014, 12:30 AM
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I'm sorry that happened. I know it feels to want some proof that you did something and that there is a real issue. Have you tried writing on yourself with pen? I find that there can be some minor pain and the ink is left on the skin. Maybe that is a safer alternative to self harming. I hope you feel better soon.
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Jan 13, 2014, 02:19 AM
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Yes and it's not the same. I want my body to be as damaged as my mind, you know?
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Jan 13, 2014, 09:17 AM
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Bedlam.... I do know what you are saying.
It really sucks when the best way to reduce some of your mental pain - no longer **works** like it used to. I hope you find PEACE..... safely. |
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Jan 13, 2014, 01:33 PM
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Jan 13, 2014, 08:06 PM
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Sorry for the misinterpretation. I wish you luck.
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Jan 13, 2014, 10:54 PM
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Jan 13, 2014, 11:16 PM
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I sincerely hope that situation you wrote about in the bpd forum gets better and you find yourself having many happy days with him. 
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"I'm sitting here screaming inside myself,don't understand why nobody hears"  Diagnosed Bipolar and BPD Meds-Elavil 50mg Last edited by notz; Jan 14, 2014 at 01:46 AM. Reason: added trigger icon |
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Jan 14, 2014, 09:11 AM
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I am a huge fan of hitting (head banging)... I have also heard of hair pulling - but that does not do much for me.
The nice part of hitting (head banging/punching) to me is.... it is ALWAYS available. Unlike cutting where you need bandages or medical tape. And there are so many places that you can do it without taking any time (do not have to excuse yourself to the bathroom). Personally I take my knuckles and *knock* on my head all the time (like you are knocking on a hard wooden door). It does not do any "damage" and offers a quick sense of relief (also helps with re-focusing when you lose concentration). Be safe angel... be safe. |
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