It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part 2

Two weeks exactly.

((((Breadfish)))) Way to go!

Now I'm struggling. It's just hurting so bad and flowing blood will help (I think)

I think I remember you saying a few times that it doesn't actually help like you think it will. Try not to give into the urges, can you try drawing/writing what and where you would cut instead?

Three weeks.

An accidental wound got infected and keeping that clean is occupying me at the moment. On the upside, I had to get the antiseptic wipes from my "si kit" and I didn't even look for the knife, wasn't even tempted. On the downside, I'm kind of embarassed to get the wound treated properly because the assumption would be it was si.

So I just looked back through this thread to see the last time I cut...it was 2nd August!! So 6 weeks! No idea how I managed that, it has been a very long time since I lasted that long, probably at least a year ago.

I can't say that I've been SI free though, there have been times when I've punched things, last time a couple of weeks ago I think.

I also have this terrible habit of picking/chewing the skin around my finger nails, mainly on my thumbs. I have been doing this for as long as I can remember and just see it as a nervous habit really. But the last couple of weeks it has been pretty bad, I just can't seem to stop and it's so sore. Keep telling myself not to do it so I can let my fingers heal but it is constant and I'm not sure what to do about it. Also in the last couple of weeks I've been chewing the inside of my mouth and tongue constantly, another thing I can't seem to stop so my whole mouth is sore too. I don't really know if this is SI or just a compulsion or what. Whatever it is I'm not liking it

Good job TheOriginalMe! I hope the infection heals promptly.

Thanks, SW. I didn't give in.

Yay Breadfish!

I think you are winning. Punching things can easily be modified to punching a teddy or a pillow or something soft. You could try the nail biting liquid for your thumbs and maybe chewing gum. It sounds like the soreness is bothering you rather than being something you want so these sound more like bad habits than si. Could the compulsion to chew be related to medication? Well done for 6 weeks without cutting.

Thanks. I tried the nail biting stuff once years ago, unfortunately it meant that every time I picked up food with my hands the food tasted horrible too..but I may have to try it again and persevere with it. I'm gonna try the chewing gum, hadn't thought of that It could be down to medication as it kinda ties in with when the dose was last increased. Just had a look through the leaflet but couldn't see anything. Hopefully I can get on top of it soon!

It has been about two months

Well done, broken_one!

I'm going to use my 300th post to announce that is has been 30 days!

@CrazyLo:



Congratulations!

4 plus 7 plus ummmmm = too long.................

Good job, i dont matter! Try to go for another day, one day at a time.

20 days.

33 days but I am having really bad urges today...

CrazyLo: use some of the skills you told us about previously: make a blanket, call a friend, call DBT therapist, use skills, hang out with family, take a nap--or check out threads here for other ideas, e.g. http://forums.psychcentral.com/self-...-yourself.html

Hang in there CrazyLo!

(((((CrazyLo)))))

Thank you, Bill! I will try.

Back to square one.

My step-dad was mean to me today and I took the self-hatred out on myself.

CrazyLo, I am sorry that your step-dad was mean to you and triggered your self-hatred.



You made an excellent long run! You will always have that long run to your credit. And you can start another long run.

(((((CrazyLo)))))

Thank you Bill. I have been crying a lot today. Crying doesn't seem to diminish my urges to self-harm, which is probably weird.

7 weeks!